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So one of my best friends from grade school is dying. Literally, dying. He's lying in his bed at home, having his insides eaten and torn apart by cancer.

I mean, this guy is responsible for some of the best memories I have from childhood/adolescence. He is one of the most talented, funniest, and most random people I have ever met in my life, and the world seems to be going a little darker as he's leaving it.

If you pray, say a prayer for Erik and his family. I can't even imagine what they are going through right now. It's not fair to die of such a horrible cancer this young... he lost his eye about 4 years ago and had to have his face removed to remove what they could...

I'm just completely sick over it knowing he dying... and there is nothing anyone can do to make his pain better.

I feel very alone right now and I absolutely hate that I can't be home with my friends were I am needed...
I don't care that we all grew apart, right now is the time we need each other. I can't keep doing this living out here all alone thing... I just can't.... I need my family and friends and I don't want to sit alone and cry anymore..