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pain pain pain pain and I can't take any pain killers at all... this is pure hell...
joeyny:
frown Stay Strong
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Okay maybe not dead to me... but he really hurts my feelings more then 90% of the time anymore....

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violetred:
gosh sweetheart...i am sorry frown
downedcity:
don't worry, some people are just pussies and complain too much. I'll be alright.
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I am a huge dork for loving this so much....

I am in love with the idea of love.. maybe because I feel like I've never really had it.

Someday....

brightredscream:
I love that video too smile
Thank you for the friend request btw
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New Life Starts Today (Still missing him like crazy though... I love him to much for this to be happening frown )



I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

And I...
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Inspired by that tour with Gwen much? I still like it though.. just funny smile

If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
I guess I'll go,
Make my own way.
It's a circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but...
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dryad:
I would totally go to that show, I won't lie.
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Books.... I don't know where I stand on them... I read a lot.. mostly buying used copies on Amazon or i use book mooch frequently... The thing is i feel jipped on book mooch as I add in new titles, I feel i only have old ones to pick from. Once I read something, unless it was a reference book, I don't see...
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dryad:
thanks!
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HOMEBOUND

The pain has died down some but its not great. Feeling a little bit off today... hopefully I feel better soon. I have a flight home at one and already hate flying as is!
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I like this song... and video.... I feel kinda like Bella lately... Torn... and running around with Jake wanting "edward" to just come back and fix things and stop me from doing something stupid.


pinnstripe:
<3 hugs....
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Pulled the plug on things... not ready.. miss max to much....

i compare everything about him..... and he was still better... ugh this sucks

In other news... starting the Raw Food detox next week.... i think it will make me feel better.
violetred:
hang in there girlie! hope things work out for ya! kiss
joeyny:
It'll be better soon. We all go through the things we go through for different reasons. It's just important to remember that it will only make you stronger in the end... wink
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So weird to scroll to the "m" in my phone and his number doesn't show up anymore....
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Not really ready to move on but he doesn't seem to care either way so I guess it's the way it has to be.
nukeboxhero:
I feel as if I am in the same boat, only I can't find the courage to delete that "A" name in mine. Best of luck dealing with it in a positive light.
joeyny:
Thats actually a huge! step... It took me forever to delete my ex's number from my phone... But after I finally did.... I was so pissed at myself for actually remembering her number, so when I was drunk and lonely I would text her....But after a while you forget... just takes time.....
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Holy Crap Emotional Roller Coaster...

Gone from one extreme of zero attention to this new boy can't get enough of me with in 48 hours..

I'm not going to lie.. I like the change... lets see how long he sticks around.
tallica4891:
Hello smile thanx for comment, nice people to welcome be back have been away for so many
months, Hows you been? kiss
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Just cut ties..... and can't stop crying about it.

I'm tired of feeling guilty about wanting to be loved back... heck I'd settle for liked back.

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is it wrong to secretly hope he calls me and wants to fix things? I need to see some sort of effort or indication that I matter at all to him.

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downedcity:
it's human to want to be loved back, but eventually there should be an effort to overcome that feeling and move on. it is not easy, it takes a lot, but it has to be done. people have the right to love who they want. hope you feel better.
oracle:
it's natural...I had an ex, she cheated on me, lied to me, hell gave me a STD because she was fucking around on me and if she called after she left I woudl have taken her back. Wait until the "spell" is broke and things will be better.