A standard break from life is in order...
My life is crumbling before my eyes and I feel like all I can do is stand back and watch.
I can barely walk because my feet hurt so bad.. I have no voice from crying pretty much all day yesterday... It's just a big mess.
My parents marriage is and has been going down hill.. I think this is more difficult for me to deal with in my 20's then it would have been in my teens because I was already always mad at them for something then. Now... it ruins my life. Now there is no option to go with either one... its get out on your own... My parents never wore their wedding rings... I never hear the words i love you between them or directed towards me... its no wonder I have such a had time with the concept. I don't like change.. and i hate seeing them get so angry to the point both are in tears.
I feel like I've been crying for a day straight.... I'm not eating because I just feel sick afterwards... Painting and knitting.. the two things I enjoy on my free time just don't interest me. I don't want to be around anyone and I am ruining everything.
I found out that Allan was getting married yesterday. What a horrible thing for someone I barely know to go out of the way to tell me... hey by the way he is living the life you wanted with out you... *thumbs up* thanks.
I don't have feelings for him I just get upset that my life got so far off track with me not working, lawsuits, being sick, and putting all my money i earn towards school and bills. I finally decided I was done struggling and postposted struggling? by taking out a student loan. I can't depend on anyone but me at this point and it puts a huge amount of stress on me.
I'm scared of my upcoming surgery..
I have bills that need to be paid... and I am always just getting by.... 6-8 weeks off of work is going to screw me over.... and then being in bed all that time......
I want to get out of the house but at the same time I should work from home today to make money to better my situation not to mention make sure no one kills anyone..
Maybe I just need some blue moon ice cream
My life is crumbling before my eyes and I feel like all I can do is stand back and watch.
I can barely walk because my feet hurt so bad.. I have no voice from crying pretty much all day yesterday... It's just a big mess.
My parents marriage is and has been going down hill.. I think this is more difficult for me to deal with in my 20's then it would have been in my teens because I was already always mad at them for something then. Now... it ruins my life. Now there is no option to go with either one... its get out on your own... My parents never wore their wedding rings... I never hear the words i love you between them or directed towards me... its no wonder I have such a had time with the concept. I don't like change.. and i hate seeing them get so angry to the point both are in tears.
I feel like I've been crying for a day straight.... I'm not eating because I just feel sick afterwards... Painting and knitting.. the two things I enjoy on my free time just don't interest me. I don't want to be around anyone and I am ruining everything.
I found out that Allan was getting married yesterday. What a horrible thing for someone I barely know to go out of the way to tell me... hey by the way he is living the life you wanted with out you... *thumbs up* thanks.
I don't have feelings for him I just get upset that my life got so far off track with me not working, lawsuits, being sick, and putting all my money i earn towards school and bills. I finally decided I was done struggling and postposted struggling? by taking out a student loan. I can't depend on anyone but me at this point and it puts a huge amount of stress on me.
I'm scared of my upcoming surgery..
I have bills that need to be paid... and I am always just getting by.... 6-8 weeks off of work is going to screw me over.... and then being in bed all that time......
I want to get out of the house but at the same time I should work from home today to make money to better my situation not to mention make sure no one kills anyone..
Maybe I just need some blue moon ice cream
trelle:
Seriously get your self the biggest scoop of Ice Cream you can get LoL, seriously though I dont know exactly but I can relate to you, my parents divorced when I was 2, and it affected my whole life, but its not your or my fault, but yes it hurts to see two of the most influencial people who we love, not love each other. The heart ache end of the deal I also understand and I dont know the extent of your guys past but typiclly as much as I despise my ex who I was supposed to have moved up there to Taylor, MI with next month actually, I realize she will always be apart of my life, but I cant let her get the best of me or add to my downers in life as she once did. Good luck with everything, As freinds have done for me, I believe in returning the favors to others and feel free to vent anytime you may need to, stay strong! 