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Life Update:

I finish my last final at U of M today and started at The Univeristy of Phoniex on Monday.. doing double duty for classes was a bad idea but I did survive.

Surgery went okay.. all the problems I was having are gone with the exception of the too much acid in the stomach.. that has gotten much worse and I am starting to look like I have an eatting disorder... I can't eat much at all without total acid hell taking over... it should pass soon.

My mom is okay... what they thought was a lump was a collection of hard tissue.. she still has to have it removed but it is not cancer.

My get all my shit out of my parents house has been moved to July 1st. I stay with Alley but not all the time. i can't afford to pay rent because I really need to save $$$ for July.

I got flowers at work yesterday..... They got there before I did so when I walked in everyone hurried me to my desk thinking that they were from Allan.... For a brief moment I got my hopes up that they were... but no.... they were from Brian.... he just doesn't get it... I still want Allan... therefore starting a new realtionship is out of the question... secondly even if the first condition didn't exsist all this boy has done is try to buy my affection with "stuff" I don't like that... he's never worked hard for anything he's wanted in his life and thinks he can buy friends or in this case a girlfriend... sorry not that type.. I don't like when guys do that one bit.
No one really understood how upsetting the above situation was for me... they kept oogling over the flowers until finally carolyn caught on... asked me if they made me sad.. and then promptly moved them out of my office...

I have a very "I can do it by myself" attitude.. sometimes it hurts me but I don't like people solving my problems for me... If I need help.. I ask.. but handing me money does me nothing but make me feel in debt to you.... rarw... stupid boys... I wish I didn't have morals sometimes..

I have no plans for new years.... I'm just not in the holiday spirit... too sad I guess.... I had everything I had always wanted and then it was gone just as fast without a real reason that I am aware of...