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Its amazing, I turn my phone to silent and the morning after have more missed messages and calls than all week.

#random

*hours pass*

To the doctor!

Lets see if I get the meds I need, or if I have to raid the antihistamines aisle of a pharmacy and self medicate.

• Alluring
• angelic
• appealing
• bewitching
• classy
• cute
• dazzling
• divine
• elegant
• enticing
• fair
• fascinating
• gorgeous
• graceful
• lovely
• magnificent
• pulchritudinous
• radient
• resplendant
• stunning
• sublime

And thats just an aesthetic description.

My mother pointed out that I should look into fibromylagia.
I had my muscular system damaged as a 12/13 year old by a SUPER production of a few enzymes (don't misperscribe a child hardcore anti-depressants when they are just having anxiety attacks, chances are, they will have a reaction!), which very nearly killed me (and has left me pretty much incapable of maintaining much muscle...
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40mg Benzodiazepan spread over 24 hours managed to get me about 12 hours sleep.

Not the ideal way of getting what most people consider a good sleep, and it was literally spread between 3am on Sunday morning til 8am Monday, in chunks.
Woe and damnation, et cetera et cetera.

Ideally I'd have enough of the things to get me to sleep through til thursday, as...
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Its a little bit sad that it took excessive drinking to get 4 hours sleep.

Still, last night was kinda fun. Not sure if spitting a mouthful of wine at my housemate was a good idea or not though (for a punk she is such a crybaby). She might think twice before constantly ridiculing a sleep deprived person though. Maybe. Probably not.
People are such...
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WELCOME TO SLEEP DEPRIVATION!


aching muscles
confusion, memory lapses or loss
depression
hallucinations
hand tremors
headaches
malaise
sensitivity to cold
bloodshot eyes
periorbital puffiness, commonly known as "bags under eyes" or eye bags
increased blood pressure
irritability
nystagmus[disambiguation needed ] (rapid involuntary rhythmic eye movement)
temper tantrums in children
yawning

Those are my immediate symptoms.

I am seriously worried :S

No sleep.

It seems this has turned into a sleep(less) journal. Nice and boring.

I just want to scream. And then sleep.



I'm starting to get a bit concerned about going crazy. Lack of REM sleep makes one go insane. I'm already getting visual distortions/hallucinations.

Insomnolent illusion... I'm paralysed.


This would be the soundtrack to my right now if I were in a film.

Since Wednesday night I have had six hours of sleep.
Between now and then I have
Seen The Muppets
Gone to a pride gig
seen 10 bands
had an impromptu party on my balcony
Looked after a friend after her tequila turned on her
Had breakfast in West End wearing a cowboy hat and looking like a seedy rockstar
Dinner and drinks with friends on...
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Haven't slept yet.
Regrouping before debaucherous night of crazy Pt II kicks off.

I might not survive the weekend.

Blackened blood that stains this bed
My sweet addiction I thee wed
You will work
I will win
I will drink in all Your sin
Till gallon drunk I hit the ground
Your reason rhymes with pence & pounds
Money makes morality
Your dividends
My decency

Your cheapest cut is sweet corrosion
The interest due is never frozen
Pass the bill
Have Your thrill
There's...
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