tiredmountain

I think it's too bad that I worry more about the relationship between human beings and the natural world than I do about my own life.

I should be selfish I think, and throw my trash out the window and believe the people who say, "Well, everyone says we're running out of resources, but actually, we discover new deposits day after day."

But I can't...
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Well, my sister gave me the money. I'm digging my grave for it, but if I work my ass off, I will not be in it.

Things are tapering off for a day or two of, "okay."

I'm going to wander and hope and work and try to find some job that pays something.

"What are people doing with their lives? What are they doing?"

I have to have first and last due tomorrow. My brother said he would give it to me, but he's on vacation. My sister has the money but I can't contact her at home, on her cellphone, or at work. My mother won't give it to me.

And someone said that my goals in life were stupid and worthless and hopeless and that I was...
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I have to have first and last due tomorrow. My brother said he would give it to me, but he's on vacation. My sister has the money but I can't contact her at home, on her cellphone, or at work. My mother won't give it to me.

And someone said that my goals in life were stupid and worthless and hopeless and that I was...
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No anger.

I have been searching for a job for a while, months, and in the past two weeks have applied to fifteen jobs. But I have only heard back from a fews.

And it's all right, but I have to move in to an apartment in Boston in two weeks and I have to have the first and last by Monday. I think I...
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I bought the new bright eyes album today and I was ready to get all sad, but, I didn't. I've been happier since I got it. Life is a bit more hopeful. I think It's not even music that I plan on taking to my grave, but it's always there.

Anyway, I have to get back to the forest. So, I'm moving to the city....
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Her:

Gentle and kind.
Cute and petite.

Someone who knows a garden.

Will give me as much as she can understand of me.
Know that I will give back,
but never get it right,
but also that I only want to give.

Where I feel safe, I will sleep.



Me:

Must not be willing to give up.

The other day, or yesterday, when I was helping my mother sign up for her personal add, she decided to hit the "home' button and it went to the homepage that I declared the homepage....i.e...suicidegirls. Mary was there saying, "hello, Mrs. McCaffrey, this is what your son does in his spare time."
but my mother is oblivious to the world.

I'm moving to boston soon....
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The other day after I woke up, I got into the shower and looked down and crawling across my chest was a tick. I didn't freak out, or screech, I was totally calm. I picked him off of me and gently brushed him onto a spider's web.

But today I'm sick. I'm sick and I for a while I thought it was lyme disease. Ticks...
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My mother bought me a scanner so she could scan photos of herself onto personal dating pages for the 55+. I can't really complain, because I can now consistently update my photographs on the net, but I can't get that Married With Children Episode out of my skull where Al buys Peg a bowling ball and his plan backfires when she actually starts bowling.

I...
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