so i fucked up and hurt a girl i really care about. she is a great person and i cant imagine my life without her even as a friend, i hope one day she can forgive me for what i have done. and to know i did it for the best. it may not look like it right now but it is. i am still gonna be there for her and hopes she would still want me to be. im sorry my views got in my way but it wouldnt have been any easier a year down the road. and i already got hurt once and it almost killed me. i didnt want to do it again. i still think of her as the sweet girl i met on october 30th and hopes she still sees the boyish charm in me to be my friend.
remy:
The smart thing to do would be to, I don't know, not say stupid things to a girl you care about. If you're gonna cut a sweet girl loose because you're afraid of getting hurt, you're gonna be in for a long series of failed relationships. The friendships aren't gonna work out either, as in the grown up world, girls don't appreciate being treated like crap and then expected to forgive you because you still harbor fond feelings toward them. Would you like it if someone said you weren't good enough to be their boyfriend, but hey, you're at least good enough to be my friend? Lastly, I think it should be pointed out that if you are going to moon over hurting a girl, it doesn't make much sense to rant at her about what a horrible person she is and then turn around and cry about it here. And if you're going to rant, at least make sense. What the hell is "malesting?" I did see your post, yes. I felt compelled to come give you some advice. Here's hoping you get some sense of perspective and stop pushing away sweet girls and blaming it all on them when you've got some inner searching to do too. Might make you happier in life.