Friday Oct 14, 2005

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i said i was nothing
which is true
i said i felt nothing
which is not
if i couldnt feel
if i were numb
like i used to be
i wouldnt hurt
i wouldnt suffer
i wouldnt
i wouldnt
i wouldnt
i wish i coudl stop feeling
but i cant
i break things
i ruin things
i fuck things up
things and people
its what ive always done
its what ill always do

i need to just detatch from everything
and hide
so i wont ruin anyone else
belladea:
*Gets out duct tape and string.*

The funny thing about hearts is that if you tie and tape them together enough, they eventually get better. smile

kiss
belladea:
I wish you could've come with too. That would've been great! You could've seen that beautiful child I kissed.

After I saw how young he looked at the Bloodhound Gang concert, I was rushed with all these glorious dominatrix fantasies. Haha! I forgot about that. (I was a lil tipsy) I wanted to make him get on all fours and whip him to "Vagina". I was gagging him with a black scarf I held behind his head and my stilettoed shoe was perched upon his back, Captain Morgan style. HAHAHAHAHA! I love me! I am such a sick broad!

You know I decided that I wanted to be a high school choir teacher back when I didnt have a sex drive I am starting to think that might not be such a good idea anymore. Id have to teach the senior class with blinders on! wink

(I wink but I'm kinda serious)

blush

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