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i went to the movies with sam this afternoon. this was official date #2. he even paid for my ticket!
we saw the dark knight... it was good, but damn it was long.

we cuddled during the whole movie and he toooootally felt me up, LOL. he'd already seen it and it was obvious that he wasn't really concentrating on the screen at all, hahaha. he was so warm. it was nice to cuddle. *sigh*

i saw his apartment before the movie. it's a total bachelor pad. dishes in the sink, sparsely decorated, and dark. i didn't go in after the movie, but thats not why. i know if i went in, the clothes were coming off, haha. especially after the inappropriate petting during the movie. inappropriate, but hot.

so here's the thing, twilight series fans, he's my jacob. he's not my edward. i know it's still early but i can just tell. i don't have an edward and who knows if i ever will. we've agreed to keep it causal. but i feel like he's really into me. and i do like him, he's so sweet, and i'm definitely attracted to him. is it wrong to keep going with this? am i leading him on? i mean... idk. he knows i'm not looking for anything serious, so, it's ok right? i just don't want to break his heart. i think part of me is also scared of being in something serious. i wouldn't put it past myself to imagine all this in order to talk myself out of it.

i'm such a head case sometimes.
boys make me crazy, lol.