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i think i'm lonely...

ok, i'll elaborate.
yesterday, i was very aware of the fact that i'm the only grandkid who's not married. both of my cousins on my mom's side are married. all three of my second cousins on my mom's side are married, and two of the three have kids. not that i probably want kids, but i'm just making a point.

i'm alone. i'm the only one who doesn't have someone. even the one cousin of marrying age on my dad's side who isn't married has a boyfriend. always. she's got a different one every now and then, but still she's got someone. she's been bringing someone to Christmas since she was probably 15. and i've never had anyone who i would bring to meet my family.

even two of my three best firends here are married... and my bff from ohio might as well be. *rolls eyes* i mean not that i really want to be married, but i just want to be less alone.

i'm alone. and it's always very obvious through out the holiday season. which, in case you hadn't noticed, is in full swing.

it starts at thanksgiving when everyone else is there with their spouses... and i'm not.
then there is Christmas when everyone else is there with their spouses... and i'm not.
and of course new years, when everyone else is there with their spouses... and i'm not. and i have no one to kiss at midnight, and i usually cry.

so thats all.