well... i am POOPED.
but i'm at preschool again this week... so no time to sleep in any more!
the saturday meeting with my old friend from high school went well. we had cosoms, lol
and i'm sure that helped. she is just how i remember, accept now she had 2 kids, a husband, and a mortgage. she brought pictures of us from high school... it was entertaining to say the least. it sorta made me sad in a nostalgic kind of way. i was so uncomfortable with myself and my body back then.. and i was TINY comparatively. but i thought i was huge...and then it made me sorta glad that i'm so much more secure being me now. i don't think i've ever been more comfortable in my skin! so yay for that... BUT the fact that everyone i know is getting married, having kids, and 'growing up' makes me feel really behind. like i should be doing those things too... but i'm not. and i don't think that i'm nearly ready, but it still feels weird. makes me sorta sad. *shrugs*
yesterday i went over and helped my friend alayna and her husband shawn unpack their new house... and by new house i mean they just bought a BRAND NEW HOUSE. i am super happy for them, its a really awesome place too, but it's so far away. AND i feel extra lame for living with my parents since they are like... real people now. and have a mortgage. and are married... and i'm none of those things. SIGH. but i did get to play with the puppies! they are 4 weeks old now and soooo precious. i named my favorite one tootsie, hehe. i want her sooo bad! but my parents would KILL me. and i don't have and extra 600 bucks lying around. damnit. haha... anyhoo. i love tootsie.
so other that feeling lame.. and questioning my entire existence... i had a pretty good weekend, lol. not that those feelings are anything new. so whatever. how was your weekend?
here's some pictures:
eventually i'll post the pic of me and jamie [the HS friend] but my computer is fucked AGAIN. grrr...
this is what i looked like to meet her after not seeing her for 7 years!
this is my new favorite dress.
this is me and tootsie... i look scary, but how CUTE is that pup!?
EDIT:
fucking hell! i am so tired of the youtube haters. damnit. i tell myself at least once a day that i'm fat and ugly. i don't need to hear it from other random assholes, like this guy on this video. IT PISSES ME OFF! ...and makes me want to cry a little too. i try not to let it get to me... but seriously i'm thinking about deleting my youtube account, cause thats just crap. anyone know if there is a way to turn off the comment capability?
but i'm at preschool again this week... so no time to sleep in any more!
the saturday meeting with my old friend from high school went well. we had cosoms, lol
and i'm sure that helped. she is just how i remember, accept now she had 2 kids, a husband, and a mortgage. she brought pictures of us from high school... it was entertaining to say the least. it sorta made me sad in a nostalgic kind of way. i was so uncomfortable with myself and my body back then.. and i was TINY comparatively. but i thought i was huge...and then it made me sorta glad that i'm so much more secure being me now. i don't think i've ever been more comfortable in my skin! so yay for that... BUT the fact that everyone i know is getting married, having kids, and 'growing up' makes me feel really behind. like i should be doing those things too... but i'm not. and i don't think that i'm nearly ready, but it still feels weird. makes me sorta sad. *shrugs*yesterday i went over and helped my friend alayna and her husband shawn unpack their new house... and by new house i mean they just bought a BRAND NEW HOUSE. i am super happy for them, its a really awesome place too, but it's so far away. AND i feel extra lame for living with my parents since they are like... real people now. and have a mortgage. and are married... and i'm none of those things. SIGH. but i did get to play with the puppies! they are 4 weeks old now and soooo precious. i named my favorite one tootsie, hehe. i want her sooo bad! but my parents would KILL me. and i don't have and extra 600 bucks lying around. damnit. haha... anyhoo. i love tootsie.
so other that feeling lame.. and questioning my entire existence... i had a pretty good weekend, lol. not that those feelings are anything new. so whatever. how was your weekend?
here's some pictures:
eventually i'll post the pic of me and jamie [the HS friend] but my computer is fucked AGAIN. grrr...
this is what i looked like to meet her after not seeing her for 7 years!
this is my new favorite dress.
this is me and tootsie... i look scary, but how CUTE is that pup!?
EDIT:
fucking hell! i am so tired of the youtube haters. damnit. i tell myself at least once a day that i'm fat and ugly. i don't need to hear it from other random assholes, like this guy on this video. IT PISSES ME OFF! ...and makes me want to cry a little too. i try not to let it get to me... but seriously i'm thinking about deleting my youtube account, cause thats just crap. anyone know if there is a way to turn off the comment capability?
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I never want kids though, so that doesn't bother me
We'll both get there in the end, i'm sure.
Youtube comment leavers are the suck. I don't even go and have a look if anyone leaves comments. Just upload it, embed it in your journal and forget about it. Maybe there is another place you can upload vids.
That puppy is the cute!