WARNING THIS ENTRY IS TRE' EMO ( which if you know me than you know that I hate thse kind so how efed up is this)
I have this sticker in my tool box at work the says
"Oh Crap, YOur Gonna Try abd Cheer Me Up Arn't You?"
Ibought this cause I thought it was funny but lately ive been down and people who try to make me feel better really just dont help. I think its when im in that kind of funk its a herculian effort to get me out. You see when I get mad I tend to either 1. Calm down right away 2. Get more than i was/should be
Lately ive been trying to get this under control like much of my life like working out more trying to eat better and focusing on making the fuse longer.
Stress however has a different plan for me I giess. thats life I know however its just that ive always been this way
The other day after a shower i found my self zoning out and what I thought about was just leaving town leaving friends and saying fuck it all! Ive never been one to give up Ill fight for what I want and need in life ,I dont believe in taking thebitch way out of life , I dont believe in stabbing people in the back to gain anything no matter how little or big , I believe that GOD HATES A COWARD ,so this kind of thought struck me as very off for me.
On the other hand I love to do stuff for people and rarely expect anything in return most of you know that. Id do anything in my power for friends and family. But what you dont relize that while im making you smile and laugh and your saying TIkki your great or you rock dude Im feeling like death all the time.
and while me doing for friends makes me feel good, right after I got home from the tatoo shop this saturday i relized something about myself
SOMETIMES ITS NOT ENOUGH
Dont think this to be a plea for pity or help cause as I stated above i dont welcome help ill make it through this I always do, I just wanted you all to know why ive been shitty lately and know that I love you all, See some of you this weekend email me if your coming and ill email you my cell#
Goodnight
Do it yourself.
Success is self-inflicted.
Follow your own vision.
Do good work.
Be tenacious.
Ignore the critics.
No one enjoys triumph more than the underdog
-T
I have this sticker in my tool box at work the says
"Oh Crap, YOur Gonna Try abd Cheer Me Up Arn't You?"
Ibought this cause I thought it was funny but lately ive been down and people who try to make me feel better really just dont help. I think its when im in that kind of funk its a herculian effort to get me out. You see when I get mad I tend to either 1. Calm down right away 2. Get more than i was/should be
Lately ive been trying to get this under control like much of my life like working out more trying to eat better and focusing on making the fuse longer.
Stress however has a different plan for me I giess. thats life I know however its just that ive always been this way
The other day after a shower i found my self zoning out and what I thought about was just leaving town leaving friends and saying fuck it all! Ive never been one to give up Ill fight for what I want and need in life ,I dont believe in taking thebitch way out of life , I dont believe in stabbing people in the back to gain anything no matter how little or big , I believe that GOD HATES A COWARD ,so this kind of thought struck me as very off for me.
On the other hand I love to do stuff for people and rarely expect anything in return most of you know that. Id do anything in my power for friends and family. But what you dont relize that while im making you smile and laugh and your saying TIkki your great or you rock dude Im feeling like death all the time.
and while me doing for friends makes me feel good, right after I got home from the tatoo shop this saturday i relized something about myself
SOMETIMES ITS NOT ENOUGH
Dont think this to be a plea for pity or help cause as I stated above i dont welcome help ill make it through this I always do, I just wanted you all to know why ive been shitty lately and know that I love you all, See some of you this weekend email me if your coming and ill email you my cell#
Goodnight
Do it yourself.
Success is self-inflicted.
Follow your own vision.
Do good work.
Be tenacious.
Ignore the critics.
No one enjoys triumph more than the underdog
-T
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i've missed you big man. hey is your friend coming with you again?