tigress

yeah, in the midst of my boredom today I started realizing that I've been feeling more and more bored with life. I have less hobbies and interests. Not much to stimulate me and more importantly not much that keeps my interest for more than 2 seconds My attention span is shorter, my responses are more vague. I seem distant even to myself.
The things I used to be passionate about I completely don't give a shit about anymore. I'm sure it's a transition of some sort. Mentally I am changing. I don't know if it's for the better though. One of the things I loved about myself was my passion. It fueled me and gave me life force and now I feel so dispassionate and detached. Even writing this I feel nothing. My depression has been pretty bad and I always am in the mindset that I know it'll pass but now I want it back just to feel something. I'd rather feel sad than to sit here in apathy. Especially since, in my case, that's completely out of "character".
Lately I've just been burying myself in books and music.
On the plus side I don't get upset over everything anymore or anything for that matter.