tigerlily

'take care of you'? c'mon, love, that's something little kids say, isn't it? or maybe i've just forgotten what it's like to have any human give a shit about my well-being. i've been screwed over by everyone i ever knew- hell, when i still lived at home, even both my parentshave seperately told on a number of occasions that they they wanted me to die, to be free of the burden of my existence. ah whatevs, people are immature- especially adults. sometimes i feel ancient- you and i are actualy old enough to remember, even if as kids, a lot of the 80's trends people reference today that they weren't even born yet to be aware of as they began- like stormy; but she's cute, like you, and she has a kind of balls-to-the-walls intensity in the way that she lives, and i admire that, just like you have an open heart and a giving spirit, which i admire maybe even more. i guess generally speaking, i'm not really am fond of most humans. i'm sorry love, i guess it sometimes astonishes me the level of kindness or interest in anything having to do with the welfare of others that you have. you're the only SG I can think of that with nearly every entry poses a question for other people comment on (i mean, there must be others that do this as well, if only sometimes, but insofar as the journals i tend to visit it isn't a common practice).

"self-awareness" gets you hot? jesus christ love- that's the very cross of life for me. to put a twist on a familiar phrase, i firmly believe that the unexamined life is the only kind that's worth living- the big picture always reveals the utter stupidity of everything to me- and i dwell on it far too often. what a world- so cold, so empty, so pointless. but still, people like you serve as an inspiration to the rest of us. don't you ever change sweetie- keep doing what you're doing...

kisses,


aleXander

p.s.- i clicked that link to that friend of yours and shortened the url to find his music- that's a great fuckin' mix, i do a similar type of thing.



[Edited on Mar 26, 2004 1:50PM]

thanks! hope you're feeling better!