Monday Aug 23, 2010

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Operation "Quitting the Internet" is going slowly but surely, I'm down to msn messenger (which I almost never use) , e-mail, and SG. Facebook is done, no more online gaming, all other online profiles are gone. I still haven't had a cellphone (or any variation thereof) yet, hoping I'll never have a reason to, my land line still remains horribly neglected. I find myself caring less and less about being noticed, gaining approval, validation or any of that bullshit from other people and getting more comfortable all the time with being alone, keeping things simple, focusing more on physical and mental health than comfort and pleasure. Maybe it's just a phase or the sorting out of priorities. Perhaps I'm just winding down or fading away, whatever the case, it feels right to me.
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cosmacosmic:
"I don't have to thicken my outer shell as much as I have to understand myself better. Some people are not going to fit into the world as others do. There's nothing wrong with this as long as you can deal with it if it happens to be your reality. I know it's mine. It took my friend dying to see what really being alone in the world is all about. You don't know loneliness unless you're around a lot of people. You can pass them in a hallway or stand with them on the bus and you'll feel it. People are the root of loneliness. When I am by myself for long periods of time I feel better about people than when I spend long periods of time amongst them. I know what I want to do with myself until I die and it took me a while to find it out and it doesn't involve me dealing closely with many people. I have to re-learn all the things I've taught myself and I have to re-evaluate all the things I've seen. It will take me a long time to learn how to not slow myself down. Other's expectations will kill you and waste your time every time. You have to learn to fly alone if you want to get a lot of things done."

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sodome:
Hullo! Long time no hear. How's that withdrawal going? smile
I'm heading the the opposite direction these days, I think. Trying an experiment in using the interwebs to actually, actively promote my work rather than obliquely hinting about it. Tooting my own horn doesn't turn out to feel any less natural online than in person, but it's made a difference this year in rebuilding freelance business.

What's shaking w you, Mister?

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