08 has started with lots of change, new house, new phone number, I got rid of most of my cars.
I still have my honda the 65 caddy, the ice cream truck and my motor bike, but i got rid of the other 5.
I think I am just making idle chit-chat. Marge is my girlfriend again and we are living together, some times I feel like its a cherade. She doesnt really like me.
She said "It is sorta weird when you keep fighting for something, fighting for something, fighting for something... and then at some point you just realize that you don't even give a fuck and it is a waste of time. Then you just can't even figure out what you're fighting for."
So what are we doing, treading water, It is funny because she wants me to be this guy, who is nothing like the guy i was when we met. But that was the guy she fell in love with. I understand that we are older now.
Fuck getting older, fuck growing jaded.
I'v come to realize that my girl really does enjoy misery. She perfers to spend her time online judging people , and judging our friends rather than relax have fun or doing anything creative.
I'm also having a hard time with the drinking thing, her drinking makes me think maybe I can drink. I can't. I know that, but it doesnt stop my brain fromfeeding me the thoughts that I can.
Maybe Im just projecting. I don't know,I just hope things get better soon.
I still have my honda the 65 caddy, the ice cream truck and my motor bike, but i got rid of the other 5.
I think I am just making idle chit-chat. Marge is my girlfriend again and we are living together, some times I feel like its a cherade. She doesnt really like me.
She said "It is sorta weird when you keep fighting for something, fighting for something, fighting for something... and then at some point you just realize that you don't even give a fuck and it is a waste of time. Then you just can't even figure out what you're fighting for."
So what are we doing, treading water, It is funny because she wants me to be this guy, who is nothing like the guy i was when we met. But that was the guy she fell in love with. I understand that we are older now.
Fuck getting older, fuck growing jaded.
I'v come to realize that my girl really does enjoy misery. She perfers to spend her time online judging people , and judging our friends rather than relax have fun or doing anything creative.
I'm also having a hard time with the drinking thing, her drinking makes me think maybe I can drink. I can't. I know that, but it doesnt stop my brain fromfeeding me the thoughts that I can.
Maybe Im just projecting. I don't know,I just hope things get better soon.
catagogo:
*hug* I miss you Justin. Finding out that one of the girls at the vacaville pizza hut (where I worked for 1 day) had a crush on you made me miss hanging out with you and everyone.