thistle

I like activities where my hands are occupied and I can jsut do the same thing over and over while thinking and not talking. Folding clothes, driving, swimming. I often come to satisfying conclusions during these activities.

I wonder about my choice of men a lot. What I wonder about is why I seem to want to be guided by my partner. Soemtimes I really want my boyfriend to make all the decisions, to tell me what to do. I am a pretty strongwilled person, so this seems like an anomoly to me. I wouldn't want to be ordered around or commanded, but the idea that someone else knows what's best and knows what to do is very comforting to me. I think that's what I like about my current man. Sometimes he just... knows. If I ask him a question or ask for help, he knows what to do usually. I know I can figure it out myself, but I like him to do it.

I guess I'm just real lazy.