thisbe

So I kind of feel like giving up on school and finding a job and being a person. For the first time ever I feel really stupid, and I'm realizing that I'm not really good at anything, and everything is just a lot harder than it should be. Life isn't supposed to be this hard, is it? Just the everyday crap? Getting up and going to class and writing bullshit papers and cleaning the house and going grocery shopping. Those are supposed to be simple, easy things. I am 19 years old and I feel like already I've made too many wrong choices that I can't take back and like I'm stuck and there's nothing I can do and there's no way to fix things. Like the world is fucking crushing me. And if anything good does happen I'm going to fuck it up. It shouldn't be this hard.