thevulture

These days I find myself remembering who I used to be and how far I've gone from that. I mean, I've always felt like I didn't belong. My thoughts were always darker than most. All my life it seems, all I ever wanted was to belong, to be cool like all of them. It's like they say, be yourself, but they don't want you doing what it is you usually do. Let go, relax they'd say. Don't be so bitter. Well you know what, it's been though trying to live up to whatever it is that they wanted and I was pretty close until I realized what I was losing in all of this. Fuck, in order to be like them I had to suppress a lot of stuff that I saw, a lot of the stuff they didn't see. And to think I had almost managed to suppress it all, it makes me sick.

Sadly these idiots want to be like me. Fuck off I ain't special or anything I'm an outcast. They want to stand out, yet they've never been singled out, beat on and last picked. Assholes don't even know what they had growing up. Now they want to be stars and celebrities. They're never satisfied. They've been so overbearing that I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know what I like or what I dislike, it's either unclear or I change my mind the next day. And all this pain, it's all because of the homogeneous nature of our consumer society. I can't stand being like them, it's not that I want to be different I just don't see things the same way.

yeah whateve' right?