thetodd6

So... This leading up to the decision this morning of filing for divorce. Married for what would have been 4 years this December, I know I'm losing a part of my best friend by making this decision, but I just couldn't take things any more... We have a 3 year old son who was born with Gastroskesis, if you know  what that is, Ethan's diet has recently gotten complicated with new food allergies. I love my son and would move the stars for him if I could for him, but if I went to every doctor appointment, I couldn't support is for the little that I could anyways. I always feel horrible that I can't be there because I have to work, and my will be Ex holds it against me. Things had been back and forth, she even filed for divorce last year which was dismissed through the court because she changed her mind and I never responded to it. But this was the last stray two nights ago....        I was hanging out with my buddy and his club and she was at a concert downtown with a friend of hers. They got drunk and I went down and gave them a ride home, her friend throwing up on the way home, then passed out on the couch. I went to bed first, then my ex comes in and wakes me to at 230 with all this shit. She tried going through my wallet and phone and yelling at me, so I decided to leave and she wouldn't let me. Blocked the doors, pushed me away and left nail man's, and even tried to steal my shoes away so I couldn't leave. So I crawled out the bathroom window, slightly fucked up my hand, and I ran off the property and down the road. I Couldn't get ahold of anyone because it was almost 3am, so I walked down the road into town for just over 2 hrs before my buddy called me back and came and got me. I'm not even going back for my clothes. I have a room at my buddy's place in town, the bikes I have fix after work are there anyways. I'm buying my dad's old car so I don't just have a only a motorcycle anymore, so I can go get my son when I can. I'm over the crazy, I'm over being upset all the time. I need something better. I need my life fully back on track, instead of just fighting to survive..........         Please forgive the long winded post, but I was told that I should at least talk to someone about it, but I really just can't yet in  person. I try to keep shit together, but I know I'll break down if I have to talk face to face. Thanks for listening, I'm just so drained and exhausted, hopefully I can sleep tonight...