I'm trying this blog a day and it's kinda nice so far. It is allowing me a way to transcribe my feels ad where I am at life. THe thing I want to talk about today is my own personal fitness. Many of you might not know but I used to weigh over 300 pounds. I lost all that weight to join the Marine Corps and swore in at 195. It wasn't a bad weight and it was the closest I ever came to being in shape. Thing is I have bloated up to 210 now and I am starting to see old habits come back to haunt me. The hardest part about losing weight isn't getting rid of it...It's keeping it off and keeping a good change in your life. I'm going to be 27 years old soon and taking orders from a boy who is younger than my little sister. I have all the tools in front of me to change my life for the better but I am not utilizing it. I need to start over again. I want to be down to 190 and my dream weight is 185. The same weight that I graduated boot camp with. I think I need to start soon. Journal all the food I eat, the workouts I do and the running I do. I need to figure this out and fast. I don't want to be the chubby kid anymore. I may not be chubby in the civilian world but here....Here I struggle. I want to stop struggling. I want to be better.