It seems ever since I acquired my goal weight I have let myself go a bit. It's nothing terrible like it was before but it starting to make me feel a bit large. I am currently 205 pounds and have gained about 20 pounds since I have been in the Marine Corps. That is in all honesty my fault. Now that I am here what else do I have to work for. What goal can be as great as losing over 100 pounds and then becoming a Marin. I think I need to not work on goals. Maybe I should try to be the best fitness I can be. See how far I can truly push my own body. I know I will never have a six pack, I know I will never be attractive but I can damn well try my best to run a marathon, complete a triathalon and be happy with myself. I know now that I was not unhappy because of my weight. Now that is gone I am still troubled by my lack of self confidence and love for myself. Maybe I can distract myself a bit longer with trying to work on my goals.
