This last week has been a gift, a gift of exercise in patience and restraint. In getting things wrong, and finding ways to be more gentle, and be more kind. It has been a chance to put into practice the things I have been training with my meditation and mindfullness. Realizing that even if I want perhaps nothing more than to write a letter to...
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Something I wanted to share and get your thoughts about. This morning I woke up to a visualization of a drain in my middle, black water pouring into it without end. The opening wasn’t very large, but it seemed bottomless. It was the hole.
Yesterday I ‘took the day off’ from my mental exercises. I spent a great deal of time doing the things that
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With someone that I've had some difficulties with in the past. Someone that I've not always been truthful with. But someone that seems to refuses to give up on me.
It's not hard to see though this, but what happened this week was something that I don't think ever happened before. I fell in love with myself, truly and honestly. I feel like I've opened
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I enjoy taking pictures with my phone. Total hobbyist. Taking pictures leaves me at odds with myself sometimes. Those times where I forget that I am a fluid creature that doesn't have to always be one way or another. That I can change and over a day, or an hour be more into one of my aspects than another. What gets thought about is that
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I don't think I've ever posted something here before. But tonight with the help of copious amount of alcohol, I'm doing such.
I don't think that I ever had gotten addicted to someone before, but over the last year and a half, I did. I met someone that made me feel amazing, she filled me in a way that I hadn't felt in years. I...
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