to my best friend/roommate,
i didn't think it would happen, but our friendship suffered by moving in together. at least in the current situation. i feel like you can't stand the sight of me anymore because all you feel is the tension between us. and it makes me hate myself for putting you in this situation. and now, because it's not just someone acting like a nutjob, like my last apartment, maybe it's me. i feel like maybe i am too open, too taking. maybe i am too comfortable with other people's things. i didn't think it was me, but i guess it probably is. and i am scared to spend money because i don't want you to be mad at me for not paying you back. so i don't. and i am scared to eat food because i didn't pay for it. and i am scared to watch tv or turn things on.
i didn't think it would happen, but our friendship suffered by moving in together. at least in the current situation. i feel like you can't stand the sight of me anymore because all you feel is the tension between us. and it makes me hate myself for putting you in this situation. and now, because it's not just someone acting like a nutjob, like my last apartment, maybe it's me. i feel like maybe i am too open, too taking. maybe i am too comfortable with other people's things. i didn't think it was me, but i guess it probably is. and i am scared to spend money because i don't want you to be mad at me for not paying you back. so i don't. and i am scared to eat food because i didn't pay for it. and i am scared to watch tv or turn things on.