thenine

I realized that when I told her, "You don't owe me anything", that I struck upon a certain truth. I think that the truth in that statement is EXACTLY what makes Love so scary. That's the point, after-all. That you chose to be with that person; you didn't owe them your love or your care but you do it anyway. And simultaneously, they don't owe...
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Snow. A fair dusting at the moment. But promises to be ice by tomorrow. Which sucks. As though getting up to go to work wasn't hard enough. lol.

Yesterday, I had a minor freakout/insecurity panic that really was very unseemly. However, after talking to the girl of focus I was much relieved of this panic. In fact, I am still very much aware of the relief and happiness that I was gifted by talking to her. Lesson of the week (so far) is to "not fuck things up because you're a worry-wart". Good...
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Boo. back to work tomorrow. lame.
Ah well.

Life seems optimistic today.

Talking to my best friend makes life better. :-)

Sigh. Feeling a bit down today. A bit out of sorts. Kind of like I'm missing something that I used to have. Maybe I'm just coming down off the high that was the last few days of last year. That could be it. Not sure really. Just being kinda moody and emotional today. Blah. Boring Journal.

I think that if I wasn't the one in love I'd be disgusted with how sappy I'm acting. Chuckle. Ah well. Off to give her a call and then pine for her as i fall asleep with my arms around my pillow.

My best friend just took off for home, then back to her job in phoenix on tues. I already miss her. But that's okay because the last few days with her made me amazingly happy. :-D I've got to start planning a trip to go see her. Which is actually kinda hard for me. Since I get SUPER airsick and that makes flight kind of...
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Just tore out a mugo pine out of the front yard with my mom. that thing was wicked imbedded. didn't have a taproot or anything just a bajillion little roots. it was a real pain but like good humans we showed that plant who was boss an used our cold iron tools! haha. felt kind of bad, i counted 23 rings on the tree. about...
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