Well, I'm glad this week is finally over. Work is starting to pile on a bit heavy. And I'm being forced into situations that are tought to deal with and out of my usual zone of comfort. (Which is, in the end, a good thing. It helps me grow.) But it is also super taxing on the health and the mind. Haven't been sleeping well at all. And have been more than my share of heartsick this week.
A little loneliness seems to go a long way when it comes down to a busy week. But I survived and that's a damn good place to start the weekend. I plan to look at some apartments this weekend, if anyone plans on calling me back. Been living with my folks while going to college and now that I have a good job can get out of their hair. My Mom is being sweet about it and freaking out a little. It's kinda cute. But she's 4'10'' so almost anything she does has an edge of cute to it.
Been talking with my best friend a lot this week. Mostly about what I'm going to do with myself when she gets married. She asked me today not to call her tonight because it makes her fiance feel bad when he's over and she's talking to me. So, I agreed not to. Which I think is kinda lame. I might as well call him and tell him he's won at the game of cutting me off. But, I don't want to make him come across as a total jerk. I play my own part in that, in so much as I really love this girl. And am extremely jealous of him. So, it's an odd situation. But right now, I feel really slighted in the whole situation. I've had a bad week, just wanted to talk to my best friend at the end of it all. But that's not going to happen. Sigh.
So, all angst-ridden bullshit aside. I'm doing okay for myself. I got a job, I'm finding my own place, and things are looking good on the stability of my future. Only thing missing is a ncie girl to share it with. Oops, back to the angsty stuff again. Maybe it's best if I just stop talking.
A little loneliness seems to go a long way when it comes down to a busy week. But I survived and that's a damn good place to start the weekend. I plan to look at some apartments this weekend, if anyone plans on calling me back. Been living with my folks while going to college and now that I have a good job can get out of their hair. My Mom is being sweet about it and freaking out a little. It's kinda cute. But she's 4'10'' so almost anything she does has an edge of cute to it.
Been talking with my best friend a lot this week. Mostly about what I'm going to do with myself when she gets married. She asked me today not to call her tonight because it makes her fiance feel bad when he's over and she's talking to me. So, I agreed not to. Which I think is kinda lame. I might as well call him and tell him he's won at the game of cutting me off. But, I don't want to make him come across as a total jerk. I play my own part in that, in so much as I really love this girl. And am extremely jealous of him. So, it's an odd situation. But right now, I feel really slighted in the whole situation. I've had a bad week, just wanted to talk to my best friend at the end of it all. But that's not going to happen. Sigh.
So, all angst-ridden bullshit aside. I'm doing okay for myself. I got a job, I'm finding my own place, and things are looking good on the stability of my future. Only thing missing is a ncie girl to share it with. Oops, back to the angsty stuff again. Maybe it's best if I just stop talking.
it was a long week for me too. must be something in the air. but at least you have the means to move out, i wont be able to do that for a while *sigh*
sometimes we think we want something but it's not the right time or place. the moment you stop looking for that special someone she'll come into your life, at least that's how it's always worked for me.
i'm kinda having the same problem right now and i need to take my own advice