thenine

Only 22 more days 'till my trip to Phoenix! yay!

Mondays are lame. But best friends who help you through them are not.

She says she wants me there. *big fucking smile*

I will be living on WoW or the next several days.

In other news. I'm probably not going to sleep well tonight. Go figure. I'm worried about my friend. And I'm worried about how I'm going to deal with the situation. In fact, I'm pretty much blowing it as we speak. Go figure.

I realized that when I told her, "You don't owe me anything", that I struck upon a certain truth. I think that the truth in that statement is EXACTLY what makes Love so scary. That's the point, after-all. That you chose to be with that person; you didn't owe them your love or your care but you do it anyway. And simultaneously, they don't owe...
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Snow. A fair dusting at the moment. But promises to be ice by tomorrow. Which sucks. As though getting up to go to work wasn't hard enough. lol.

Yesterday, I had a minor freakout/insecurity panic that really was very unseemly. However, after talking to the girl of focus I was much relieved of this panic. In fact, I am still very much aware of the relief and happiness that I was gifted by talking to her. Lesson of the week (so far) is to "not fuck things up because you're a worry-wart". Good...
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Boo. back to work tomorrow. lame.
Ah well.

Life seems optimistic today.

Talking to my best friend makes life better. :-)

Sigh. Feeling a bit down today. A bit out of sorts. Kind of like I'm missing something that I used to have. Maybe I'm just coming down off the high that was the last few days of last year. That could be it. Not sure really. Just being kinda moody and emotional today. Blah. Boring Journal.

I think that if I wasn't the one in love I'd be disgusted with how sappy I'm acting. Chuckle. Ah well. Off to give her a call and then pine for her as i fall asleep with my arms around my pillow.