Captain can make it happen
I hate not knowing how others are thinking/feeling. I think if I could pick my own mutant ability it would be that. To be able to know how people really felt. Plus the fact that I'm extremely nosey. I always want to know "the rest of the story"
anyways, there is this girl that we have been friends for a few months now. now like real good friends but me and some of my friends will stop by her and her roomie's apartment everyonce in awhile and check on them and chill and drink or something like that. And if we see each other in town or somewhere we always speak and give each other a hug or something. Well, I've always thought the girl was attractive ( I can't help it, I like really small petite girls); but more than that she's always been really down to earth and nice. Now she is a little bit dingy..but I can overlook that.
well yesterday I picked Kevin up and we decided we were going to go up to rockingham to drink and bullshit around. but before we left we were in Cheraw and stopped by Mayflower to eat were we saw the girl im referring to, and her roomie. They asked what we had planned for the night and we told them and told them they should come out and chill with us.. They said they might would considering how much they made and how they were feeling when they got off. Kevin and I got up to the bar around 1030 or so and started drinking a bit. The girls called us shortly after and wanted to know directions. about an hour later they got there and we all chilled some and listened to the band and shit. Around 1200 I told them I had to stop cause i had to start sobering up so I could drive home. Kevin and the girls wanted me to keep drinking because the girls said they had never seen me drunk. One of the girls even volunteering to bring me and Kevin back up to Rockingham the next day to get my truck. So therefore, with the exception of about a drink an da half We finished the bottle of Capt. Morgan. we all danced some and then me and Kevin rode back with the girls. One of which I was in the backseat making out with the entire time. we got back to their apartment and we were all sitting around talking and next thing i know Kevin and one of the girls was in a hurry to get to her bedroom and started "getting freaky"
Me and the girl I was with were still chillin' talking and kissing and shit like that. Then she told me she didn't want to hurt my feelings or anything but that she didn't want us to have sex that night cause she pretty much didn't want me to think of her as a ho. Which is cool, and I wasn't pissed off or hurt or anything like that. (now Kevin and the other girl seemed to be upset because they kept yelling " will yall stop talking and just fuck?!?!) but we made out somemore and then she was like "Im going to bed but you are more than welcome to come and lay down and cuddle with me" and anyone who knows me knows i love cuddling. so I went in there and we cuddled up and talked and so forth.
woke up around 12 or so and we all kinda sat in the living room and watched cartoons and shit. but even then I sorta felt like something was wrong. then and since then I've felt either girl felt bad about us not doing anything last night or she was ashamed we made out so much or something similar to that?? now according to her roomie the girl likes me alot and has, last night she just "talked herself out" of fucking me.
Im not worried about the fucking or anything like that. I mean, yea it would be nice.. but im not going out of my way to try to fuck her. I'd be happy just having someone to talk to and hold. And I don't think thats a huge thing to ask for.