First things first...Othello is at home with Jenn & his fam. I'm just heartsick for them, knowing the inevitable is coming so soon.
good luck, little buddy.
In other banal, whiny news...
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Work was the suck today. Someone made a smart-ass remark about their paycheck being larger than mine because I left one minute before six.
Who the fuck is she?
I hope the results of her drug test label her as the cokehead she is so she's out of everyone's hair. Especially mine.
(Our insurance company requires drug testing to drive the company and customer vehicles...in case you were wondering.)
So I hung out with MissLucy at Doc's this evening, I think it's the last time I get to see her before she moves to Houston
(you'd better come back ofent. miss thing!! 
)
While driving home my phone rang.
It was my ex-boyfriend, Watson. There's some background here...not much. Basically we were together for a while four years ago and were broken up by his parents who didn't approve of my age at the time (I was 18 going on 19; he was 26).
So things have changed since then (obviously
) and we're both different people, but we're still the "same old someone" that we were back then. Part of me has longed to get back together with him and work things out- which is what we were trying to do two years ago, but then I met Michael and my plans changed. 
Watson has been a great friend to me through alot of ups and downs even though we were not an item, and despite his parents' wishes. I just don't know what to do right now. Do I keep him around to fall back on or do I just keep on with the friendship and meet new people like I've been doing? I don't want to get involved with someone else (not seriously, at least) immediately, although I would like to start dating again one of these days.
But then I'm wondering who I'm really kidding and I have this weird hunch that Watson and I will end up together anyway. This is all so confusing. I hear it in his voice that he still feels for me....and I feel for him but I am so freaking confused about everything. I want to give us a shot again, I do, we were amazing together; it's just...I have so many other options open to me right now and I don't want to get tied down to one person again just yet...it's all so WEIRD...I mean on the one hand a month ago here I was thinking I'd never be single again, and here I am now, looking at the menu but not sure what I want. On the other hand maybe Watson and I just need closure...since we haven't actually seen each other since we broke up...since it *was* his parents' fault.
ADVICE...please...someone...anyone! Do I go for it...or...what? Not that we've discussed it either way. It would involve some hefty discussion.
that said...
the mess that is Jamie would like to hang out with some peeps tomorrow. get me thru my contact tab if you wanna chill
good luck, little buddy.
In other banal, whiny news...
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Work was the suck today. Someone made a smart-ass remark about their paycheck being larger than mine because I left one minute before six.
Who the fuck is she?
I hope the results of her drug test label her as the cokehead she is so she's out of everyone's hair. Especially mine.
(Our insurance company requires drug testing to drive the company and customer vehicles...in case you were wondering.)
So I hung out with MissLucy at Doc's this evening, I think it's the last time I get to see her before she moves to Houston
(you'd better come back ofent. miss thing!! )
While driving home my phone rang.
It was my ex-boyfriend, Watson. There's some background here...not much. Basically we were together for a while four years ago and were broken up by his parents who didn't approve of my age at the time (I was 18 going on 19; he was 26).
So things have changed since then (obviously
) and we're both different people, but we're still the "same old someone" that we were back then. Part of me has longed to get back together with him and work things out- which is what we were trying to do two years ago, but then I met Michael and my plans changed. Watson has been a great friend to me through alot of ups and downs even though we were not an item, and despite his parents' wishes. I just don't know what to do right now. Do I keep him around to fall back on or do I just keep on with the friendship and meet new people like I've been doing? I don't want to get involved with someone else (not seriously, at least) immediately, although I would like to start dating again one of these days.
But then I'm wondering who I'm really kidding and I have this weird hunch that Watson and I will end up together anyway. This is all so confusing. I hear it in his voice that he still feels for me....and I feel for him but I am so freaking confused about everything. I want to give us a shot again, I do, we were amazing together; it's just...I have so many other options open to me right now and I don't want to get tied down to one person again just yet...it's all so WEIRD...I mean on the one hand a month ago here I was thinking I'd never be single again, and here I am now, looking at the menu but not sure what I want. On the other hand maybe Watson and I just need closure...since we haven't actually seen each other since we broke up...since it *was* his parents' fault.
ADVICE...please...someone...anyone! Do I go for it...or...what? Not that we've discussed it either way. It would involve some hefty discussion.
that said...
the mess that is Jamie would like to hang out with some peeps tomorrow. get me thru my contact tab if you wanna chill
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you have to keep moving forward right now.. not backwards.
give yourself some time before you even think about exes.
if you find yourselves in the same place in the future then maybe you could consider it. but not a moment sooner.