thelastasthmatic

let it be written: i am an ass!

i am listening to ultraspank. waiting on lance to carry me to the movies.

i loathe.

do i ask too much? she is going to a club that was voted best pick up and singles bar in town. she is going with an old friend that she used to get fucked up with. he told me stories about how she'd be dancing around smacking her ass while he video taped. he tells me stories of under-aged girls going to bars in the orient to learn english-while he warns them that american guys in bars will expect a little something....

this is supposed to set my mind at ease? i trust her-but i don't trust the environment she's going to. she will see nothing wrong with it and tell me that she l;oves me.

i will drink whiskey and rum tonight till i can't see straight. i hope she doesn't come over and asks me what is wrong. i'm upset and hurt-but i also don't want to hurt her.

too bad i didn't drink more when i was younger...

or do more drugs...

or fuck more women...