It's the last day of February... 2006.
Remember the Transformers movie? (you know you do...) Go back and watch it if you haven't in a while... it took place in 2005.
I don't recall anything like that happening last year, though I feel like I've slept through the last... hmm... 5 years. At least.
Like last night, I tried so hard to stay awake... we were cuddling in bed watching tv and it was only 11, but I was so warm and happy and he smelled so good and there is no better feeling than being held... so I just kept drifting off to sleep. I woke up this morning and he was gone. I know I was happy - I was the happiest most relaxed I'd been all day. And all I wanted to do was sleep. So I slept right through it.
Do I always sleep through the happy stuff? Is that why all I can remember is the bad stuff? This isn't really a negative post, I'm mostly curious. I do feel bad that I, yet again, came over here to spend time with LittleFierceOne and all I did was sleep. I swear I'm the most boring girlfriend ever.
But, mostly, I'm just wondering why I lose track of time so bad. Watches, clocks, alarms... none of it helps. It's like my brain and the rest of the world measure time in different increments. Most times mine is slower. It's like my seconds tick longer, and my hours stretch out to cover way more than 60 "rest of the world" minutes.
It's February 2006. You know, at one point, I imagined I would be just over halfway through my first year of teaching, and four months into my first marriage by now. I'm really glad I was wrong about the latter, but the teaching thing... I'm now three years behind on that. It's going to take me til '08 to graduate with my degree, provided I start in August and don't screw up.
So, let's see... if I was three years behind on that... then I must be moving 3x slower than everyone else. Lovely.
I know we all march to the beat of a different drum, but it's time to speed up my drummer.
Remember the Transformers movie? (you know you do...) Go back and watch it if you haven't in a while... it took place in 2005.
I don't recall anything like that happening last year, though I feel like I've slept through the last... hmm... 5 years. At least.
Like last night, I tried so hard to stay awake... we were cuddling in bed watching tv and it was only 11, but I was so warm and happy and he smelled so good and there is no better feeling than being held... so I just kept drifting off to sleep. I woke up this morning and he was gone. I know I was happy - I was the happiest most relaxed I'd been all day. And all I wanted to do was sleep. So I slept right through it.
Do I always sleep through the happy stuff? Is that why all I can remember is the bad stuff? This isn't really a negative post, I'm mostly curious. I do feel bad that I, yet again, came over here to spend time with LittleFierceOne and all I did was sleep. I swear I'm the most boring girlfriend ever.
But, mostly, I'm just wondering why I lose track of time so bad. Watches, clocks, alarms... none of it helps. It's like my brain and the rest of the world measure time in different increments. Most times mine is slower. It's like my seconds tick longer, and my hours stretch out to cover way more than 60 "rest of the world" minutes.
It's February 2006. You know, at one point, I imagined I would be just over halfway through my first year of teaching, and four months into my first marriage by now. I'm really glad I was wrong about the latter, but the teaching thing... I'm now three years behind on that. It's going to take me til '08 to graduate with my degree, provided I start in August and don't screw up.
So, let's see... if I was three years behind on that... then I must be moving 3x slower than everyone else. Lovely.
I know we all march to the beat of a different drum, but it's time to speed up my drummer.
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And i firmly believe that the rest of the world would be better off if they adopted our sense of time, not vice-versa.