Sick.
sicksicksicksicksicksicksick.
Doesn't matter what it was it will become strep throat. Except my head is less achey and my throat has stopped hurting (possibly due to my sinuses ceasing to drain down my throat) after sleeping for 18 hours. I figured halfway through the night last night that part of my sickness had to do with no food and no caffeine for more than twelve hours so I medicated myself with crackers and a Coke. Head still feels two sizes too big. Had to get up this morning for an appointment and to meet a coworker of mine, also sick, to sell her a cellphone for a friend of hers. When we made these plans I blocked out the part where she said she was meeting her friend for lunch in my proximity "if I felt like it." Fucking sap I am. I hung around in the humid heat for three hours waiting for the confirming call to meet her, which never came, suffering the whole time BECAUSE I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT AND I STILL SHOWED UP!! In my appointment today I was told to not care. I'm gonna try that now. I came up with two phrases. The first is "I don't give a shit." that means you don't care about anything, like, for example, falsifying heart monitor strips because you don't feel like doing them and missing the simple signs of Complete Heart Block. The other, I don't give a fuck, is when you do what you do, do it to the best of your ability, and not care about all the things that don't matter.
I don't want to give a fuck! Unfortunately, you can't give a fuck while others don't give a shit.
I had a girlfriend many years ago. She worked in a popcorn stand in a mall. That was all she aspired to do in her life. Popping popcorn, selling fudge. That bothered me. I was young, said: stupid, and believed that a person should always strive for more, better. That was thirteen years ago. Yet all these years later, embittered and misanthropic, I look around and see that most people are like that: complacent. Why does anyone want to remain stagnant, wasting away doing the same thing year after year? It intrigues me how a person chooses not to grow personally. As an artist it's easier; change your writing style, take pictures of something else or in another format. But for the mundane workers out there I'm not talking about a shocking change of career. I'm just wondering if a person could realize that their existence as it is wasn't the end all be all. What if he/she said yes more than no? That was another problem that girlfriend had as well, and I'm not just talking the sexual.
But everyone out there think they are as right as I think I am. Difference is, I am promoting vital and healthy growth on a personal level while others are only demonstrating human ignorant stubbornness. Yes, change is scary, but that doesn't make it wrong.
Anways, here's hoping my stubbornness just cured sinus infection. I'm going to bed.
sicksicksicksicksicksicksick.
Doesn't matter what it was it will become strep throat. Except my head is less achey and my throat has stopped hurting (possibly due to my sinuses ceasing to drain down my throat) after sleeping for 18 hours. I figured halfway through the night last night that part of my sickness had to do with no food and no caffeine for more than twelve hours so I medicated myself with crackers and a Coke. Head still feels two sizes too big. Had to get up this morning for an appointment and to meet a coworker of mine, also sick, to sell her a cellphone for a friend of hers. When we made these plans I blocked out the part where she said she was meeting her friend for lunch in my proximity "if I felt like it." Fucking sap I am. I hung around in the humid heat for three hours waiting for the confirming call to meet her, which never came, suffering the whole time BECAUSE I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT AND I STILL SHOWED UP!! In my appointment today I was told to not care. I'm gonna try that now. I came up with two phrases. The first is "I don't give a shit." that means you don't care about anything, like, for example, falsifying heart monitor strips because you don't feel like doing them and missing the simple signs of Complete Heart Block. The other, I don't give a fuck, is when you do what you do, do it to the best of your ability, and not care about all the things that don't matter.
I don't want to give a fuck! Unfortunately, you can't give a fuck while others don't give a shit.
I had a girlfriend many years ago. She worked in a popcorn stand in a mall. That was all she aspired to do in her life. Popping popcorn, selling fudge. That bothered me. I was young, said: stupid, and believed that a person should always strive for more, better. That was thirteen years ago. Yet all these years later, embittered and misanthropic, I look around and see that most people are like that: complacent. Why does anyone want to remain stagnant, wasting away doing the same thing year after year? It intrigues me how a person chooses not to grow personally. As an artist it's easier; change your writing style, take pictures of something else or in another format. But for the mundane workers out there I'm not talking about a shocking change of career. I'm just wondering if a person could realize that their existence as it is wasn't the end all be all. What if he/she said yes more than no? That was another problem that girlfriend had as well, and I'm not just talking the sexual.
But everyone out there think they are as right as I think I am. Difference is, I am promoting vital and healthy growth on a personal level while others are only demonstrating human ignorant stubbornness. Yes, change is scary, but that doesn't make it wrong.
Anways, here's hoping my stubbornness just cured sinus infection. I'm going to bed.
raen:
hells yeah razor was pretty awesome... don't no anything about their website or webisodes but sounds plausible.
cassiel:
i used to get strep all the fucking time as a kid...here's to a speedy recovery