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"...you don't just drop 30,000 troops in, wave a magic wand, call it democracy and make it look like New Jersey."
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thefly:
Yep, definitely a 'nam era song. My point, I guess, is like you said, brotherhood. However, one of the people that have hurt me the most is my mother, we didn't talk for two years (kicking me out of the house instead of dealing with the problem, just silencing the complainer, kinda does that to a relationship). I've also found dogs to be as fickle as humans. Friendship is a symbiotic relationship wherein a person receives more help, attention, whatever than they have to give. It's something you can never trust in the opposite sex in a friendship. I have a "friend" who has dangled me over her husband's head for longer than they've been married. When she left him (the first sign they shouldn't have gotten married, but I digress) I was who he searched out for he knew she'd be with me. My number seems to be found whenever they are having problems. Chris Rock summed it up best I've seen. Platonic friend= dick in a glass. In case of emergency, break glass. I want to say I haven't had a true friend (non-internet, I'm amazed at how my Friends section has grown) for around five years but then I think of how those friends, like I said, were getting more help than they were giving.

With the economy the way that it is I am afraid of making any moves at the moment (not to mention the debt I'm trying to work off to free up money). I've got a secure job in healthcare but I hate myself for being there. But I'm planning. I don't really need for nothing, no real wants, so things should be okay. But, I don't know, it's easier to be ignored by tourists and locals in a resort town than to have to endure the self-degradation of people in the sticks. I began to wonder yesterday why Stephen King lives in rural Maine still. If I had the means I am sure I'd try to keep moving. I like having, say, a base of operations to return to if I wanted; but I have no home and know no where I'd want it to be. As the poet Tom Petty inked, The waiting is the hardest part. The inaction of it truly bothers me since reaching thirty. Youth is dwindling down and at least a direction should be decided.
mneylu:
aww thanks for the photolove! biggrin
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wow. time is a flying by this year as expected. I think I'm doing a pretty good job of staying true to the plan. more photography, less gardening. less cold-calling, more getting out and meeting potential clients or um, just potentials...

I started writing reviews on yelp. I had been checking out the site and reading reviews for quite a while, and I saw...
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mneylu:
Hey nope, those pics aren't for SG, i only seem to get sets accepted if they are plain or cute- nothing that really represents my closet and activities hehe.

'll have them for sale for a while so if you do feel like getting yourself a gift in the near future let me know smile

Yes, i like my sets on SG but again, we can't always shoot what we like right? There are many other factors that influence and block personal expression.

I've always done huge updates like that - I just add to them when i think of it over a few days not too much time smile
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"A little patience and we shall see the reign of witches pass over, their spells dissolve and the people reawaken."

-Thomas Jefferson
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binah:
than you for send me a happy b-day! biggrin biggrin biggrin
thefly:
I wonder now, why run? We run and things continue on like they have. Running IS only a short term answer. What we need to do is rally against them; corporations, government, employers and say we're made as hell and we're not gonna take it anymore... and not take it anymore! These are our lives, this is our country. We need a combined Revolution and Renaissance. We need to stop being complacent and buck the status quo and take control, either again or for the first fucking time. They can't do this to us. Why? Because we won't accept it just like they don't accept what we do now. We the people, need to grow a pair of balls and treat the status quo as the antagonist in an 80s action movie.

Unfortunately our best hope right now is the spineless Democrats in Congress (truly, they are quite spineless).

I always wanted to find something positive about the carolinas or begin something here. My fear is not really finding a new place but in the decision... people try to paint a pretty picture of their zone yet one finds out it's a lot like the place I left. The guy and job I spoke of has been hinted at before. I don't have much faith in it but I'm truly believing I'm due a miracle soon. Praying and wishing never worked in years past so I'm relying on blind, thoughtless luck... as usual.
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Well, this year is coming to a close and I wanted to do a real entry on here... I mean with some effort involved which it seems I usually cannot spare. It doesn't help that I kinda hate writing. And as a photographer you'd think maybe I would to post a lot of pics too, but this is one po'ass over-worked motherfucker...
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thefly:
Tech blah blah follows...

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I have never set up a RAID but understand the same as those who posted in the Mac User Group (striped is faster because data written in two different places, Mirrored makes a copy, cannot mix internal and external, etc). However, any RAID set up will require you to erase and format both/all drives. Just mentioning so you know you'd have to reinstall the OS. FYI, I've always wanted to set a (striped) RAID but I'm afraid of one drive going out... if you lose one you lose the other.

I don't know how well you can run Classic from an external. The rule I memorized was that no OS can be run from a USB drive but you can from a Firewire. But it being Classic I'm not sure. And to clarify, you mean you want to run OS 9? Classic is a part of OS X that allows you to run apps/hardware with OS 9 drivers. OS X 10.3 (Panther) was the last version to really support Classic Mode. I think you have to run Jaguar (10.2) or earlier to be able to boot into OS 9. I know Leopard, and possibly Tiger, never allowed me to install OS 9 or any previous OS on a drive.

If all you want to do is install the OS on that drive you don't have to partition it, just erase. Or if you have to (I can't remember that well at the moment) you just create one partition. If you plan on using the drive for more than just that OS (backups, storage, etc) you can partition; 10 GB will more than cover OS 9 (depends on how many native files you will be storing there besides the operating system). I can't remember if the formatting is the same for all the Mac OSes, I'm thinking it changed with X, but it shouldn't matter since each partition will be formatted to do what you want it to.

Not sure if any of that makes sense... I just got home. Let me know if it helps or if I've confused you more.




As for your comment, I haven't tasted that delicacy for a while either. Probably explains my mental angst.

thefly:
FYI- USB 2.0 is faster than Firewire on paper... USB is burst data, it quickly passes data then it slows down. Firewire is constant streaming data. The worst thing Apple ever did is get rid of the Firewire option for iPods. To this day I spend the extra time USB takes to curse its name and inception.

In your situation I'd stay away from the RAID option. The drive just needs to be formatted so the Erase tab should be utilized. Keep Volume Format as Mac OS Extended (Journaled) and name the drive and try to use the OS 9 install disk(s) to install. If that works just go to Startup Disk in System Preferences; if OS 9 is readable it will appear as an option here.

A couple of alternatives: have you checked the scanners websites to see if they have updated drivers for OS X? Most have a download page (though it depends if they still supported the scanner after OS X came about). ALSO... since you just want to run a scanner driver through OS 9, why can't you just use Classic? I remember my issue now... an Intel Mac can't run OS 9 due to the architecture and then then code was left out of Leopard. But if all you need is the scanner to scan installing the whole of OS 9 seems overkill. If you have a disk, putting it in and double clicking the install thumbnail should launch Classic and run you through the installation steps. Then opening the software should open Classic then the scanning environment. If you don't have a disk, again, check out the downloads website for the manufacturer to find the appropriate driver. I don't know why Classic wouldn't work.

Also, you used the word "only" to describe where you have your media stored ("...files only on a zip drive right now"). This is where I tell you to back them up somewhere else. CD/DVD. on the WD external. Somewhere else "just in case."
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I finally saw the new Bond flick last nite and I thought it was pretty good. I think I liked it more than the first Daniel Craig movie, which says a lot because I thought that was pretty rad too. I just don't remember right now those scenes that are supposed to be a stretch, to add suspense and because it is afterall just...
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thefly:
I met Elly after a few of her sets went live and maintained my composure. My fear is to know someone who then I see naked on the internet. Having gone to school with ScottSmallin I keep waiting for him to find someone we both know and photograph them. Like how he shared nude shots of his then girlfriend with me (when he was trying to break into this whole scene). It'd be like that girl I was crushing on being our model in a life drawing class. I'm not sure how it'd be to meet any SGs. I'm so not part of this culture so I would come off pretty dorky with any conversation excluding the whole I've seen you naked bit. I think I'm pretty much just dorky and antisocial.

Oh, and Manko and some of the new girls made the trickle of new sets worth it.

I prefer QoS to Casino Royale. I mark it up to the fact I've read the book and they changed too much for my liking. Quantum of Solace is the name of a short story but has nothing to do with the movie. I had no expectations. But Craig is becoming one of the best Bonds. Reading the books I always thought of George Lazenby (On Her Majesty's Secret Service, his one film) because he fit. Craig is becoming that guy too. What got me more than his boat in the scene mentioned is not so much the chase itself but how everyone (but Bond) has automatic weapons but is hitting nothing. It was the same with the opening sequence. Craig's movies are better with their intimate fights, the one on one feats of strength. It was weird that the Bond group here on the site never even started a thread to discuss the movie.

Stay positive and enjoy the holidays. I leave town Friday to see family and am hoping for the best.
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turkey day was pretty cool. my cousin down in palo alto puts a pretty good party together for such nights. he has a couple little rascals that are a blast too. so most of friday I hung out until the evening wrestlin' those two and then we strolled around dowtown pa. they opened like 10 bottles of wine thurs nite so that was pretty sweeet...
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thefly:
The doctor warned the parents of "minor" complications. Since they had had children before they weren't overly concerned. They didn't know the extent of the complications until the poor girl was born. How medical professionals couldn't have noticed that before birth is beyond me. There's also another video on YouTube with a woman saying how drunk driving doesn't always kill; her friends all died when hit by a drunk driver but she was caught inside and burned. Her face melted off. One of her eyelids is completely gone and she has to continuously apply eyedrops to keep the eye from drying out. I think her name is Jacquiland or some sort. I try to keep these two individuals in mind. Life's been pretty good to me. It's sad that that thought is still based on exterior looks.

I guess I should add that I'm glad I'm not a security guard in Wal-Mart on Black Friday.

As you say, anyhoo, I ate dinner with the cousins and had a long spiritual conversation with their oldest son (few years older than I) into the wee hours of the morning. He keeps trying to find direction through religion and spirituality. It amazes me, he's a very intelligent guy looking for that eternal answer; yet, he has not allowed himself to consider that there is no answer. Either way, the conversation was of the sort I am not used to in this hick backwoods town. It made the evening worthwhile.

Hope you fared the same or better.
thefly:
The only movie I've seen with SJ is Lost in Translation (well, starring her; I saw Ghost World as well, etc.). She just has this look. I'm not partial to blondes but she steal my heart now and again. I need to check out Woody's movie. Afterall, I have her album of Tom Wait covers (it's quite dismal and I would normally laugh but she took this project sincerely I hear so I hate it didn't fare better).

I did see Quantum of Solace. Many say it's an extended ending to Casino Royale but I enjoyed it much more than Royale (of which I read the original Fleming novel so I'm a bit biased against it). I watched CR just the other night to make sure of it. Craig is an amazing Bond and the reality turn the movies have made is nothing but good. The movie is nothing like the short story written by Fleming (his two best Bond stories have the least to do with Bond, Quantum of Solace, fucking awesome, and the Hildebrand Rarity) but I like the way they are establishing another SPECTRE in the Bond universe. I just wish we could see a friendship between Bond and Felix like in the books.

I'm shutting up before I rave anymore about Craig or my girl. If you were thinking of seeing it I would recommend it.
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alright folks, it is time to pray with all your might.........
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loretta:
smile
sounds promising tongue
haha
thefly:

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I quit my therapist because I realized two things (which are actually one): 1. no matter what I said he kept repeating only one issue that shaped my life as if seeing a friend killed in front of me (didn't happen to me, just using as an example) didn't need to be discussed and blamed for fucked-upness as much as verbal abuse from a parent (also, didn't happen), and 2. I stopped trusting him. yeah, I have trust issues but this guy reached a point where everything stemmed from one issue and that was the one thing I needed to face. That, and I think it was therapy for him as much as for me. Very talkative, that one.

He has been calling to check on me but I'm never here or asleep when he calls. Having taken a break he tried me again yesterday. Ironic, he mentioned how he just started reading my novel. It would have done both of us more good if he had done that before. Oh, and he compared my psyche to a story he had started to read of mine... BUT IT WASN'T MY STORY HE COMPARED ME TO! Yeah, it must have been time to move on; I feel better now than I did when I had him.




I did quit caffeine and have lost almost all traces of chest pain. Who knew, caffeine is a killer. It's interesting giving up one's only vice. Mindset has been more stable since. I think we all are selfish when it comes to the pieces of our lives, be it cigarettes and even our psychoses. Why do I have to give mine up? She doesn't! Why must I change, he isn't. Silly, really. We shape our own selves but we do so with the perspective from others. Whose really to blame I keep wondering.

I don't offer advice otherwise I'd put it here. The thing that keeps me centered right now is thinking "at least I'm not Juliana Wetmore."

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well here's an update... really just cuz I said I would start adding some photos and I've a hot one for ya here. I shot this in Miami a couple years ago and I'm adding it to my website in the near future (well prob not too near they way things are going, but hell I'm trying). unfortunately I didn't...
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annika:
Thank you so much for your support on our member review set!

xxxo
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Fuck it's 5:30 in the morning. Running out of gas at like 7pm and falling asleep has kinda fucked things up lately. Or maybe it's feeling like crap that makes me want to just go to bed and escape the world for a while. I guess it's a combination of both. I was supposed to meet up this weekend with this...
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reid:
I'm only looking to shoot with staff photogs, or people I really know. I've had some bad experiences with other modeling stuff and photographers. But thanks for the offer!

And I do talk to Lorelei a lot about shooting. The other photographers, I'm too nervous to talk to! I don't feel like I'm cool enough haha. blush biggrin
thefly:
I'm contemplating the intricacies of perfection and genius at the moment. I think I tried to make the compliment much greater than it was (me, an egotistical asshole? I say not!). Besides, it's just a perception most usually place on themselves.

Afterall, your visit to the Genius Bar, and speaking to those labeled Geniuses, kind of proved everything but.
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I went into the city today... did a few errands, too late for some. Scored a couple cool VHS movies though (I've been buying these when I can from between $2 and $7 I think that's pretty awesome. I'm trying to get stuff I've never seen before but sometimes I've gotta go for the greats- like the Big Lebowski - but...
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thefly:
Not in the 'biz I have to say I know of McClintock. I told my therapist I had thoughts like hers, like you said you've had. Funny, it seems my family is the grand cause of mine. He made me promise not to act on them. I laughed. I told him as of that morning in his office I could assure him I'd do no such thing but late at night some time... well, I have a difficult time breaking a promise, that's why I don't make them, but I promised him so looks like I'm stuck with it for a while. He asked me during the same session what I do with my friends. I laughed. Again. I told him I didn't have any. I resigned myself into accepting no one will host a memoriam for me nor will there be left notes of sorry.

I have a coworker who has a movie collection of over 800 titles. I'd say still 60% of it is on VHS, pieces she found in Family Dollars and clearance movie stores. I once was going to offer to digitally convert them then I realized her tastes are not quite as refined... I can't see sitting through the endless sea of Steven Seagal and WWE wrestlers turned actor movies. I've just picked up Taxi Driver, Raging Bull, Rear Window, and other classics I haven't seen yet. Criticize me for that. Another coworker criticized me for not having seen Malibu's Most Wanted, his favorite movie of all time.

That reminds me, Bob the Therapist also said I need to get the hell out of here to a place with actual culture... he's goddamned right.

Good luck with the chica.
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Well, lots to do lots to do, shit. But today or yesterday really was a big day to look back and reflect on things, and honor my father who passed away 20 years ago (from sudden heart attack). So Friday would have been his 71st birthday also. I had a lot of work to do this weekend and so as usual I couldn't do...
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thefly:
For clarification, you can buy TV DVDs, use handbrake to rip them, iTunes to convert them to iPhone format and then sync them with said device. For the moment I've got Ghost in the Shell: SAC set up in such a way.
thefly:
Razor was the webisodes they had on the website, right? Just put all together on the DVD? I know there was upset people that went out and bought Razor expecting it to be season three after they postponed the DVD set (some people are so damn stupid).

Is that a vote from you for seeing it?