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I keep waiting to go crazy.

I feel it as one feels the onset of illness. My mind is dark though I'm actually in good spirits right now. It's there, though. Waiting. It's in there waiting to pounce on my good sense when it's back it metaphorically turned. I won't say what thought went through my head yesterday (for it would surely not be the...
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raen:
By here, I meant Earth in the present day... anyway your plans sounds alright. What kinda camera are you shootin' these days? I'll have to check out that Craig Ferguson guy.
raen:
That Fergurson guy is pretty funny... he looks exactly what Pete Rose would look like I think were he not a fat, bloated, drunkard (no offense to Pete).
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My internet connection has been wonky for a week, just cutting out intermittently when the urge struck it. Of course there's no one to talk to on the weekends, then it was back to work; it wasn't until today I got the chance to talk to someone. His thought was that a needed an updated modem, a brand new one instead of a firmware update...
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raen:
if you saw my therapist she would be telling you right now how to look on the bright side, and you would be ready to throw a shoe at her. good luck with your internet.
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One of my credit card companies (that I have a card with, not that I own... just to clarify) sent me a letter in the mail telling me that I could get a more personalized card with the image I choose (out of their offered 150). I'm realy a minimalist (hey, I like the girls of the ibtc) so a monogrammed card or such would...
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I had set a rule for myself... if I wasn't published by the time I was thirty I would hang up the typewriter, figuratively.

I was published, not the way I wanted to but whatareyagonnado? I was in the Writing (or is it Writer's?) Group here about to respond to a member when I thought it better to ramble on here.

I just wanted to...
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anthea:
oh darling.. I would love to read something by you. Even in your blogs you are wonderful with words. Its always important to go for your dreams.. I really hope you doing that. Cause it doesnt sound like it.. :/ kiss Try to have a nice day?
raen:
sounds to me like you are pursuing your passion... as I have been. and this is supposed to make us happy. Money is not supposed to matter (BS of course). "Centralizing" as they call it... making that which really moves you central in your life is supposed to be one of the 9 keys to a happy life according to "How we Choose to Be Happy". It's a book my new therapist (I'm finally getting free therapy at least) asked me to read. I'm also reading "When Things Fall Apart". things are still falling apart though and I am not any happier about it. she might be worth something yet though, the jury is still out. if she can she help me change the way my mind is reduced to the capacity of a 2 year old when the heat is on, then she will have been worth my time.

I meant to read that halloween story of yours but I never did. Is there still a link?
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I had chest pain. Went to ER. Everything fine (even my thyroid, which my mother was adamant I get checked out). Had a doctor followup. Mentioned anxiety. She prescribed meds. Still having chest pain (tightness, really). Meds aren't working (so it's not acid reflux and not helping me cope with stress). Appointed a Cardiac Stress Test. Heart fine. Did diagnose one thing: I'm fucking out...
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look, two videos that don't work... looks like I have another problem to complain about on this site.
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raen:
well that last one certainly does look bad. it is shot though in one of those venues where everyone is on film and they plaster on the make-up. some girls just wrinkle pretty early, likely from too much sun and not enough screen. I guess the blondes fall into that trap easily and the readheads just can help it. I think I may have seen part of a jameson flick once. never got into that stuff, I'm more of a soft-porn kinda guy- playboy or SG (much better despite the frequent geriatric spells).
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I installed Windows Vista on my MacBook Pro. I normally wouldn't declare such a travesty, but I installed a gadget (cheap widget knockoffs) called Spectral Radar; it searches for ghosts in the vicinity. It's been looking for Elvis recently.

IT FOUND HIM!!!!

It went off but he disappeared before I could get a fix on him. Is it coincidental that his birthday was yesterday?! Is...
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cassiel:
THE KING LIVES!
raen:
hmmm. well happy new year to you too bud. i've been using that program trial, Pages. i like it. thought it was a good chance to try it out writing this grant. especially after I couldn't find how to insert a header in Word after like 15 min. Excel, I know fairly well so I am using that for the budget... but I can't seem to get it to print with the gridlines now. it just stalled too, so time to reboot the computer. I feel like I'm back in school writing papers all night again.
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Oh look, the site's running slow again.

I'm so glad to be a member to a top notched-runned site.
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They say what you do on the first day of the new year is indicative of what you'll be doing for the rest of the year.


I was in my hospital's ER.

Thirty years old and having chest pains, shortness of breath. I was told to get in a gown, had nitro sprayed under by tongue, x-ray, vials of blood drawn. And waited. The amazing...
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