thearcanecircle

I'm a loser baby, so why dont you kill me. Moods are weird. Sometimes a song like that is the farthest thing from my mind. Others it is the epitomy of my day. I wish i lived in a more stable mindset. It might be kinda nice i think. I dont think i'v ever gone more then a week and keep on one side of the emotional line. Except for maybe when i was married. I'm just glad i never turned to drugs for escape. I only did them cause i thought they were fun. And that was only for a brief period of time, about a year. Same goes for alcohol. I still drink just like i did when was in highschool, but i have rarely ever drank because i was depressed or because of some other emotional disturbance. I still feel also that if i wanted to i could stop drinking at all right now and never start again. So that is a good thing. Not sure why i wrote all that. Today was spent trying to stay awake and fighting with the boat corpman again. I'm about ready to shoot him in between his eyes i think. Then i got home and was finally able to take a nap. I passed out from about 4 or 7 or so. I think i'm going to head off to bed again here in about 30 mins. You never realize how much of a good thing sleep is untill you deprive yourself of it for a day or so. I guess i;ll stop there since i am rambling.