the_monster

today has felt like such an odd day. it feels like a day for secrets, care to share one of yours?

i'm not sure where this post will go, just feel like writing. i've had a lot on my mind lately. i guess that's the benefit of being sick and therefore having a lot of time sitting around. i have no idea where my life is going. that's not a bad thing. just an observation. sometimes i see myself sticking with what i'm doing. not at...
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as much as i love my job sometimes it can be fucking exhausting. i'll elaborate more later. when i first found out that everyone i work with (literally every single coworker) smokes up after work i was surprised. now i know why. don't get me wrong,i love my job. but after a 16 hour shift all i want is whiskey and weed.

wow, that last blog was depressing (i hate the word blog, but yet i still use it.... oh well). oh well, sometimes anxiety shit happens.. at least its a limited event. but yeah, so sunday besides the mental fuckup was a very good day. after some delay to the weather me and ravioli were able to get together. she drove up this way and we...
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some times i feel like i've outgrown my mental shit. other days i feel like everyone has the same shit. somedays something happens and reminds me i have whatever. and then somedays just remind me that it's all about absolutely nothing and is in no way rational. in a way i'm proud of how well i take care of my shit. like they told me...
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well it's the new year, and while i'm not usually one to give much of a shit (it's just a random day assigned importance by people) 2009 was an interesting year and 2010 looks to be pretty good. so i thought i'd make a couple of lists in hopes that you (the 1 and half of you who read this) would do the same. so...
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I think it's safe to say the past four months have been the most important in my life. I hesitate to say best, as there are (hopefully) many more months, years, and decades to come. And their are a few periods of my life that could rival the happiness I've been experiencing lately. It is however when you step back and look at the whole...
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what a crazy time i've been having. so christmas i worked from 8a-4p. then left and went to my aunts for family dinner. there i got a gas pump liquor dispenser thing from my cousin's wife lori, who had me in the secret santa thing we do. there was of course many drunk uncles and stumbling aunts. i spent most of my time with my...
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so much to write. not enough time. just go to Ravioli's blog to read about my amazing yesterday.

my man crush on tom waits continues to grow after finally buying myself orphans: bawlers, brawlers, and bastards. it's likely a combo of my old-manish-ness and my wanderlust but this literally sounds like nirvana to me. i want this type of existence.

Nirvana -Tom Waits

Not...
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I seem to get geekier and geekier the older I get. Growing up I don't know what you could label me. I mean I know what people thought about me but I don't know if there was a specific label. I listened to all kinds of metal, loved gore movies, and read obsessively about serial killers. So yes, I was odd, but people thought of...
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