It is 2:48 AM. I should be asleep, considering I have to be up for work by 5:00 AM, but instead I feel the need to blog.
A psychic vampire is someone who holds the ability to feed off of someone's emotions, energy, life force, etc. I was taught by my grandmother throughout my childhood to be aware of not only my own aura, but the aura of others as well. Most notably, my grandmother taught me how to be empathetic. Sure, if someone is hurt, or upset, or in need, there is usually a physical solution for helping them. Many people fail to realize that for each hardship we face, our personal auras can also become wounded. What my grandmother (being a practicing Buddhist) wanted me to learn is how to reach out with my own aura to heal that of others'.
However, as I grew older, practiced my meditations, and strengthened my aura, I eventually realized that I also had the ability to "feed" off of the energy of others. Whether it be positive or negative, joyous or depressing, hyper or relaxed, I can draw it into my own energy. (Sexual energy is most certainly the most intoxicating of energies to feed from. Lust carries a pureness that not too many other emotions carry.) This was intriguing at first, and I did explore it a bit, but I soon came to the conclusion that I could potentially do some serious harm to another person's aura if I'm not careful. Thus, I decided, that aside from feeding off of the spare energy of those around me, that I will only intrude deeply upon another aura to feed off of one thing. Negativity.
No, I am not collecting bad energy just for the hell of it. My grandmother, who has the most pure aura I have ever felt, taught me to heal others. If I have the ability to help them, then I also have the responsibility. I took that lesson to heart, and in a way it has defined who I am among my peers. I'm always the go-to-guy when someone is troubled. I draw the negativity from them, and replace it with positive energy to better restore their aura. I thought I could do this indefinitely. I figured that through meditation, I can release the negative energy, the hurt, the pain, the suffering, without directing it toward a specific source or person. But I have practiced aura healing for years, and lately... I feel the negative energy weighing me down.
I am beginning to worry that I cannot continue this indefinitely, but I also cannot simply leave a person's aura imbalanced if I can help it. I cannot pass such a burden to someone else. I... am not sure what to do. I feel... so tired. Exhausted.
Wow... this post turned out to be lengthier than I intended. Ooops. O:)