The friend that is apparently in love with me drove for five hours to come up here and see me in person, (to prove his love for me I believe was his reason).
And now both he and my boyfriend have bloody noses.
I have to admit...some sick primal part of me really liked the fact that there were these two guys duking it out for me...I mean, you have to understand something...I never get this kind of attention...guys don't fight over me. I'm the invisible girl, the one that you have to look really hard at to notice. So yeah, I will own up to the fact that for me this is a confidence booster of sorts.
But...my heart (which is still mending from being broken before) is tearing itself apart at the thought of making such a choice. They've both been there for me when I needed them...I care for both of them a lot...But is it selfish of me to think that throwing all this at me isn't just a bit unfair?
Why can't I have them both in my life? Why does it have to be one or the other? Why does everyone have to be so fucking selfish?
Why can't we all just...get along?
EDIT: Of course, now that I think about it...I'm just as selfish for wanting to keep both of them in my life rather than just one. Gah, it's a neverending cycle.
And now both he and my boyfriend have bloody noses.
I have to admit...some sick primal part of me really liked the fact that there were these two guys duking it out for me...I mean, you have to understand something...I never get this kind of attention...guys don't fight over me. I'm the invisible girl, the one that you have to look really hard at to notice. So yeah, I will own up to the fact that for me this is a confidence booster of sorts.
But...my heart (which is still mending from being broken before) is tearing itself apart at the thought of making such a choice. They've both been there for me when I needed them...I care for both of them a lot...But is it selfish of me to think that throwing all this at me isn't just a bit unfair?
Why can't I have them both in my life? Why does it have to be one or the other? Why does everyone have to be so fucking selfish?
Why can't we all just...get along?
EDIT: Of course, now that I think about it...I'm just as selfish for wanting to keep both of them in my life rather than just one. Gah, it's a neverending cycle.
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solanubis:
You need to calm damn, and take a breather. Yes, I agree, the law of Karma is a bitch at times, but that's the way it is. Don't think no one's paying attention to you, 'cause there's always someone. That's all i'll say for now, 'till next time....
solanubis:
I guess each unique situation will dictate the choices you make and it's outcome.