thatkipperguy

I have heard of people doing this blog thing. And I have even heard of them having great success and many readings. I have also considered myself a writer, but I also hardly write. Perhaps I can find it in me to say more. Here I can say the things I can't say on facebook, or some other blog site, here I can say a little more. I can write more about a topic that interests me, sex.
I have am in a strange place. My girlfriend and I have not had sex in a month. It is because of the other tensions which have built up in our relationship, but also because she has HPV and may have cancer. I feel like a jerk because all I am worried about the fact that we may never have sex again, or we may not have sex in for a long time. I feel like I have to be brave and strong for her, and for my mom, who also has cancer; it seems that the two closest women in my life have cancer, so that is shitty.
Last night she proposed that I find other women to have sex with. I have to admit that I was tempted by this idea. I would have to advantages of a relationship, companionship and love, AND I would get to fuck whoever I wanted. But the reality is, and I have seen this happen with many other people, is that hearts will be broken and jealousy will rear its ugly head. So I told her I would not, and I have to tell myself that I shall not. This is a shitty situation.