I just realized I have been emotionally abusive to my b/f and very selfish. I cannot even believe it. I am in shock, I hope when we speak in 2 days he will be able to understand.
Starting psychiatric day treatment program tomorrow. B/f and I are temporarily separated as I wrote in dating sucks. I miss him so much. And I love him so much. God I want this to work out. My heart feels so much pain, but I am hanging on.
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rodan:
well, FWIW I give a shit about your life 
. I'm not saying I'll be heading your way wearing armor on horseback but you seem like a cool person that it would be interesting to know better .
I mean, anybody that lists BDSM and Hello Kitty in the same list of things that make her happy has enough edges to be fun to talk to!
Mine's fair to middlin' - I've certainly had better extended time periods, OTOH I've had much worse so it's all good
. And compared to most of the world mine's positively stellar, so I've certainly got no room to complain. Which is why mostly I dont .
. I'm not saying I'll be heading your way wearing armor on horseback but you seem like a cool person that it would be interesting to know better .
I mean, anybody that lists BDSM and Hello Kitty in the same list of things that make her happy has enough edges to be fun to talk to!
Mine's fair to middlin' - I've certainly had better extended time periods, OTOH I've had much worse so it's all good
. And compared to most of the world mine's positively stellar, so I've certainly got no room to complain. Which is why mostly I dont .
rodan:
na, he's a guy - we don't typically think about the other person's feelings - it's a feature . I guess we're worth it - never really been sure about that tho!
Take care - I'll be 'round here if you need me.
Remember tho - no white horses and armor (making sure our expectations are set appropriately...).
. I guess we're worth it - never really been sure about that tho!
Take care - I'll be 'round here if you need me
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Remember tho - no white horses and armor
(making sure our expectations are set appropriately...).Now that I have my medication straightened out I feel much better. Finally. I recommend Prozac Backlash. THese antidepressants are totally addictive and have horrible side effects, which the drug companies just hide. But at least I am alive.
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My neighbor's kitty, Tuesday, was killed in front of the house by dogs. It is really sad. I look after their cats when they are away. They had 3, and now they have 2. Big dogs are awful that would do that. 
Things are looking up
Fuck. So I am up to 169 lbs. Only about a 2 months ago I was 162. I just so not wanting to diet, but the longer I put it off the more painful it will be. Weight watchers, and exercise is the only way to go. It is just so boring, and hard especially with a sig. other. Ugh. Fuck. I had noticed my...
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xanippi:
the scale said 160 to me too... gaahhh whats going on!
xanippi:
you need a new profile pic hehe
I'm sick, I have a cold and I have soo much work to do and I can hardly move.
I keep thinking it is supposed to be spring in Atlanta and wearing spring clothes and freezing my ass off outside. When will it end.
comandante_72:
how are you doing? what about the weather? 
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