terramedicx

I just realized that SG is really the only place I have to let things out away from everyone around me. I don't know anyone in Florida from SG, and most of the people here that I try to tell about it give me odd looks. At first this sorta made me sad, because I generally really like SG people and it makes me feel isolated to not have people like that I can hang out with here. I think I changed my mind though...because for the first time in a VERY long time...I'm feeling like I need somewhere that I can bitch about things that I don't really have to worry about people in my life reading.

I've been in Florida for three weeks now, and I've somehow already managed to plant myself firmly in the middle of a SHIT load of drama! I really HATE drama...and yet...I ALWAYS seem to get myself involved in it. Invariably...it's cause I'm a flirt...so I either flirt with the wrong person, or someone thinks that my flirting indicates a more serious interest than I actually held...or any number of other problems associated with being a flirt. I will generally admit...I bring this on myself!

So what'd I do THIS time? WEEEEELLLLL....

A) One of my roommates introduced me to a second year student that he knows. This girl is super cute, very smart, lots of fun to hang out with and generally just a really great person! I obviously am rather interested, however I didn't know what the history between my roommate and this girl was...so I asked him...he said something along the lines of, "Well we met on a mission trip a few years ago and she came to visit me while I was in Oregon, but nothing happened 'cause she was with this guy, and now there's some unfinished business between us." WTF?!?!? What does THAT mean? So I figure...ok, whatever...I just won't pursue anything with her and see where things go. So a few days later she's over at our place for dinner and we all go out afterward, and she's flirting with me...and being who I am...I flirt back. Nothing outrageous, nothing I wouldn't do with any number of other female friends of mine (including the wives of a couple of my friends!) Well last night after we were all out again, my roommate got really pissed at me and told me I needed to "Stop hanging on her, because there are things going on with her that you don't know the first fucking thing about!" Now...I should mention...that I DID ask HER what was going on between them...and she said VERY clearly that they're just friends and explained about what had happened when she'd visited Oregon. So here I am, no mater how she and I may feel about each other, I will NEVER be able to pursue anything with her, and worse yet...I now have to walk on eggshells around her...WTF!?

B) (This one is the easier one). So before I came out to Florida, I met a girl off of facebook who was going to be in my class. We started chatting, she's an EMT and used to work for a fire department and was in the Navy. All in all, she's a really cool girl, and I really enjoy talking to her. In fact, we talked for like two hours while I was driving back from Washington with my sister a few months ago. A month ago or so she got into another school in Ohio that offered her a bunch of scholarships. I was disappointed, but it wasn't a huge deal. Except then I met her. Her family lives in the Davie area, and she'll be here until next Friday, so we got together for dinner and some drinks. Now that I've met her, I really don't want her to leave. She's quite an amazing woman, and more importantly, it is so easy to talk to her! We get along great and I would LOVE the chance to get to know her better. I don't know what I want to happen, but I know I wish there was more time to see.

C) There is a girl in my class that I met in the last few weeks. She has a boyfriend who moved to Florida with her, but they've been having trouble for a while. Expectedly, I started flirting with her...unfortunately, I took it too far. Long story short, (too late) we went out with a bunch of our fellow students to some bars/clubs and had a good deal to drink. We danced some and flirted, then we came back to my apartment (my roommate drove) and she stayed the night. Now...she could have slept on the couch, or I could have slept on the couch, but instead, we slept together in my bed. I seem to have a very bad habit of putting myself in situations that test my resolve and morals! I didn't have sex with her...but its still not exactly a good situation for me to be in! I think this one will be easily resolved, but I also think I should avoid sleeping with any of my other classmates in general!

Again, I'm glad I have SG to vent on...I realize that no one actually reads my blog or really cares about my crazy women issues. It still makes me feel a little better...although I'm still feeling like I want to curl up and hide under a rock...why does my life alway get so fucking complicated on me?!?! Maybe next time I'll tell the interwebs about the fun things that are happening in my life...