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Venting time.

I feel like I am 15 again and suddenly started getting the silent treatment from a girl I just started dating.

My mind races in a sudden plunge of imagination, terrible things I think the other person is thinking, constant flipping between thinking I am overreacting and thinking I am underreacting. Should I be trying to make more contact? Does this person want...
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In the interest of using this thing like my old livejournal (exciting, I know), here's a dream I had last night that I wanted to share. It's about an ex-girlfriend, but written in second-person so you can get in on the action too

The setting is a country community, visibly similar to the parts of 101 near San Luis Obispo but the people are really...
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Well good work fucking that all up, sir.

Update: A little less fucked up. Thanks, Ms. Zombie, you're pretty swell I guess

I think I'm a little bit wildly in love with Mollie. I never told her but I'm sure she kinda maybe realizes it. I think I knew it from the start, but I'm always the one to doubt those things, and things being their complicated selves sort of screwed that all to hell. The same things, more or less as would mess it up if...
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Naked girl showering next to me, used to fuck her, don't anymore, want to again.

Wow, that changed. Okay, so I'm in Amsterdam now, and for every reason I could give about wanting to live in Europe, ditch the tech scene, or anything, the only reason that matters enough for this to have really happened is Nadya.

There's all those other great things about her that I could tell you, but this is my place to vent my lust.

Being...
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I find it somewhat stupid (and yet fitting) that the best cure for what had been ailing me was my own foolishness.

On Monday evening I spent some time with Lindsay and during the ride home I told her all about the anger and frustration I had been feeling. She's like Anwen, Lindsay is, disarming. After I told her everything, I felt so impossibly foolish,...
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Part of my mechanism for dealing with pain has always been to do a bunch of interesting stuff, the idea being that the reason why things suck was because I fucked up somewhere along the way and that interesting things usually lead to more enlightenment and talents. For example, I think it is a damn shame that having grown up in a mexican family I...
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Feeling a bit mopey again, despite prior claims to have willed that feeling out of being. Something about 10pm+ just hits me and makes me grasp for something to lean on. Tonight, it is a bottle of wine.

Since I've started drinking I've not been in a situation that has put me emotionally on the rocks, and now that I am it is horribly scary....
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"Vous pouvez le determiner apres avoir coucher avec elle."

This one is going to be whiney, prepare yourself.

She told me she is worried because I seem to like her much more than she likes me. How shitty is that? Makes me want to cry myself to sleep.

I've always thought that a lot of the things people cried over were pretty small, that if they cared so much about something they would be...
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The big sorta-feels-like-i'm-in-a-bug's-life kind that you can buy at IKEA. She brought it to the office with her when she came to work there for a few hours.

I adore her like whoa.

Even the smallest hidden interactions seem to make me giddy. We were throwing a paper airplane named Sky Chat (and later Sky Chat 2.0) back and forth across the office with little...
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