I bought some St.Johns wort today..
I wish someone would sit down and talk with me. I guess i have to talk with myself, which i suppose is best. But right now I would like to feel like someone cares about my wellbeing enough to actually listen... because I'm really trying to be happy, I'm trying to not say any negative things, reverse all negative thoughts and eveerything. Tonight it worked
I met some new people and instead of labeling them and not giving them a chance i talked to them and had some fun. I was proud of myself.
But i really miss georgia. Terribly. All night i wanted to curl up in her arms.. I wish she didnt desert me when i needed her most. But i suppose it is for the best. I can't bog her down with all my imaginary problems that consume my head.
Life is what you make it.. And lately i've been making mine a nightmare where i would rather just be put out of my misery.
I go through this every month. I have to start recording how i feel each day on a scale of 1-10 and see if there's some pattern. Perhaps it is PMDD. Maybe a manic disorder.
In the meantime, i need to somehow improve my memory... Because I do read a lot but I can't remember anything. I know everyone is like "i have a terrible memory" but i really do. And with the new found memory I need current world intelligence and to become more worldly. I need substance. I need to be able to stimulate others mentally.
Oh my.
It'll be ok. Everything happens for a reason anjd it all turns out for the nest in the end. I have to start re-believing all the things i used to believe about life and how it works,
The Power of Positive Thinking i hope will help turn things around. I have to realise things arent as bad as i make them out to be. I have go to stop being so damn uptight and let loose and have some fun.
muh.
It's funny.. The only part of my life I really remember was dating my first boyfriend. I loved him and he broke my heart.. I remember everything about that relationship.. and thats about all i have managed to remember of my life.
I wish someone would sit down and talk with me. I guess i have to talk with myself, which i suppose is best. But right now I would like to feel like someone cares about my wellbeing enough to actually listen... because I'm really trying to be happy, I'm trying to not say any negative things, reverse all negative thoughts and eveerything. Tonight it worked
I met some new people and instead of labeling them and not giving them a chance i talked to them and had some fun. I was proud of myself.
But i really miss georgia. Terribly. All night i wanted to curl up in her arms.. I wish she didnt desert me when i needed her most. But i suppose it is for the best. I can't bog her down with all my imaginary problems that consume my head.
Life is what you make it.. And lately i've been making mine a nightmare where i would rather just be put out of my misery.
I go through this every month. I have to start recording how i feel each day on a scale of 1-10 and see if there's some pattern. Perhaps it is PMDD. Maybe a manic disorder.
In the meantime, i need to somehow improve my memory... Because I do read a lot but I can't remember anything. I know everyone is like "i have a terrible memory" but i really do. And with the new found memory I need current world intelligence and to become more worldly. I need substance. I need to be able to stimulate others mentally.
Oh my.
It'll be ok. Everything happens for a reason anjd it all turns out for the nest in the end. I have to start re-believing all the things i used to believe about life and how it works,
The Power of Positive Thinking i hope will help turn things around. I have to realise things arent as bad as i make them out to be. I have go to stop being so damn uptight and let loose and have some fun.
muh.
It's funny.. The only part of my life I really remember was dating my first boyfriend. I loved him and he broke my heart.. I remember everything about that relationship.. and thats about all i have managed to remember of my life.
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Have faith in yourself, youre on the right way!
swen
I'm posting because you wanted a diet buddy, if you want to swap stories, habits etc my email is paulabear792@aol.com, I'm currently seeing a psychologist about eating and ither shit, write to me if you like