So it's time for a new journal entry.. I'm assuming you all thought I died there.. lol, whoever reads this! *nonone*
I got my hairdressers licence today and bought professional hair dye.. redkens new Metro line.. POP violet/red.. oh shit my hair better NOT fall out. :\
School is rough, but I met an awesome guy :hearts: Chris-- and he rocks my socks. Life's funny...
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I got my hairdressers licence today and bought professional hair dye.. redkens new Metro line.. POP violet/red.. oh shit my hair better NOT fall out. :\
School is rough, but I met an awesome guy :hearts: Chris-- and he rocks my socks. Life's funny...
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tadzi:
I was wondering and i do read this
I'm loving the St.Johns Wort.
I didnt take any yesterday because i went to the cottage and didn't take it with me.. and last night I started to get down and crying.. it was insane.
i KNOW that BLA BLA BLA it takes so long to work and you shouldnt notice results immediately... but hell, I don't care - it's probably all in my head...
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I didnt take any yesterday because i went to the cottage and didn't take it with me.. and last night I started to get down and crying.. it was insane.
i KNOW that BLA BLA BLA it takes so long to work and you shouldnt notice results immediately... but hell, I don't care - it's probably all in my head...
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aries:
i know everyone gets in their little clicks. people who do that, theyre doing that to be stronger. you know, they all dont know what theyre doing either. no one does. the teachers dont either. and yes, if it works better YOUR way do it your way. but you have to still do it their way while you are in school and state board at least. Your way always is the best way. i do everything MY way. i never do anything from what they taught me there. youll get past that. and it will seem like the smallest thing in your life. how many hours are required there? here it is 1600.
aries:
thats what i mean, they get in clicks because of insecurities. oh i got rid of that hair a while ago. i just threw red all over it. the dark pink would bleed into the white everytime i washed it i had to put bleach on all the ends again. i did it mostly for the pictures it wasnt real practical. not that the red is. i still have to dye my hair once a week. 
im afraid nothing keeps it in. sulfate free shampoo helps. 
im afraid nothing keeps it in. sulfate free shampoo helps. I bought some St.Johns wort today..
I wish someone would sit down and talk with me. I guess i have to talk with myself, which i suppose is best. But right now I would like to feel like someone cares about my wellbeing enough to actually listen... because I'm really trying to be happy, I'm trying to not say any negative things, reverse all negative...
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I wish someone would sit down and talk with me. I guess i have to talk with myself, which i suppose is best. But right now I would like to feel like someone cares about my wellbeing enough to actually listen... because I'm really trying to be happy, I'm trying to not say any negative things, reverse all negative...
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swen:
There's surely power in positive thinking. But it's very important not to put too much pressure in it. Not everybody (certainly not me) can use this method in every situation without some good experience with it. There are always setbacks and youll at some points doubt whether youll ever make it. But if you take it easy on you, you will.
Have faith in yourself, youre on the right way!
swen
Have faith in yourself, youre on the right way!
swen
the_bear:
This might be something you already know, but St John's Wort takes about a month to kick in, so you got to be patient...
I'm posting because you wanted a diet buddy, if you want to swap stories, habits etc my email is paulabear792@aol.com, I'm currently seeing a psychologist about eating and ither shit, write to me if you like
I'm posting because you wanted a diet buddy, if you want to swap stories, habits etc my email is paulabear792@aol.com, I'm currently seeing a psychologist about eating and ither shit, write to me if you like
I think i need to change.
Apparently I'm too negative. Sorry everyone, I'm going to turn myself around.
I need a new improved personality, perhaps I'll create a second personality and eventually take it over as my own.
I need to be
a) More Social
b) Happier
c) Wordlier and more wellread/intelligent.
I need some work. I'm by far a socialite because I don't think...
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Apparently I'm too negative. Sorry everyone, I'm going to turn myself around.
I need a new improved personality, perhaps I'll create a second personality and eventually take it over as my own.
I need to be
a) More Social
b) Happier
c) Wordlier and more wellread/intelligent.
I need some work. I'm by far a socialite because I don't think...
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fenris23:
You don't seem to be too negative about other things you just seem to bash yourself too much.
"The power of Positive Thinking" thats a book on the topic but you probably don't really need a whole book. Just try to stop the self-bashing words from coming out of you mouth they aren't true.
"The power of Positive Thinking" thats a book on the topic but you probably don't really need a whole book. Just try to stop the self-bashing words from coming out of you mouth they aren't true.
simon:
It's not so much you need to start thinking "Positive." You need to start thinking accurately about yourself. It's easy to think possitively. "Just Do It!"
You're probably depressed because you have negative/inaccurate thoughts about yourself. Saying things like " I suck," or "I'm stupid," or "I'm no good at all," is just not true. You're lying to yourself and starting to believe it.
Sure, there are some things we suck at. I also know there are things you DON'T suck at. Just like we ALL do stupid things from time-to-time. but that doesn't make us STUPID.
Stop lying to yourself !!! The more you think shitty things about yourself the more you're gonna believe them!! You're NEVER gonna be perfect. None of us ever will.
You have a girlfriend. Yeah things are rocky right now, but there are obviously some really cool things about you or you wouldn't have someone in your life that cares so much about you.
I'm sure people point out things they like about you. I KNOW your girlfriend does. But I'm also sure that when someone says something nice about you, you don't believe it. There's usually a "Yes, but......" in there somewhere in your mind. REALLY start listening when people give you a compliment. Because they're being honest with you even if you don't see it.
(Wow, sorry for being SO wordy, but I've been through all this too.)
Don't "beat yourself up" for beating yourself up. You've been hard on yourself for years. You're probably not gonna stop overnight. It's OK!! Just recognize that you're being hard on yourself and stop.
Ok, I could go on ALL day. I hope this makes sense. Bottom line. BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!! You deserve it. Be good you yourself and your girlfriend will be good to you.
Take care!!!
-Simon
(Michael)
You're probably depressed because you have negative/inaccurate thoughts about yourself. Saying things like " I suck," or "I'm stupid," or "I'm no good at all," is just not true. You're lying to yourself and starting to believe it.
Sure, there are some things we suck at. I also know there are things you DON'T suck at. Just like we ALL do stupid things from time-to-time. but that doesn't make us STUPID.
Stop lying to yourself !!! The more you think shitty things about yourself the more you're gonna believe them!! You're NEVER gonna be perfect. None of us ever will.
You have a girlfriend. Yeah things are rocky right now, but there are obviously some really cool things about you or you wouldn't have someone in your life that cares so much about you.
I'm sure people point out things they like about you. I KNOW your girlfriend does. But I'm also sure that when someone says something nice about you, you don't believe it. There's usually a "Yes, but......" in there somewhere in your mind. REALLY start listening when people give you a compliment. Because they're being honest with you even if you don't see it.
(Wow, sorry for being SO wordy, but I've been through all this too.)
Don't "beat yourself up" for beating yourself up. You've been hard on yourself for years. You're probably not gonna stop overnight. It's OK!! Just recognize that you're being hard on yourself and stop.
Ok, I could go on ALL day. I hope this makes sense. Bottom line. BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!! You deserve it. Be good you yourself and your girlfriend will be good to you.
Take care!!!
-Simon
(Michael)
need to lose weight.
Buying gym membership friday.
MUST.
I want to be 130 again.
Not 136. EW.
Buying gym membership friday.
MUST.
I want to be 130 again.
Not 136. EW.
tadzi:
no you dont
youre hot.
deal with it
youre hot.
deal with it
swen:
I don't think that losing 6 lbs will make a difference. With or without them, you're looking awesome.
But since you seem to already decided on losing them, good luck, you'll make it! Do the gym-thing but don't forget to eat healthy food. I don't want to hear you're getting sick...
Take care,
swen
But since you seem to already decided on losing them, good luck, you'll make it! Do the gym-thing but don't forget to eat healthy food. I don't want to hear you're getting sick...
Take care,
swen
well well well..
awoken by SUBWAY ringing it's head off on my cell phone at noon.
"Can you come in as soon as possible??"
I'm supposed to work at 4. 4-9 with a question mark, which means i'll likely be there until 11:30. So, THAT is 6.5 hours as is, but now.. NOW.. i'm going in for 1, ONE !! ONE UNTIL MOSTLIKELY ELEVEN!!!
PLEASE,...
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awoken by SUBWAY ringing it's head off on my cell phone at noon.
"Can you come in as soon as possible??"
I'm supposed to work at 4. 4-9 with a question mark, which means i'll likely be there until 11:30. So, THAT is 6.5 hours as is, but now.. NOW.. i'm going in for 1, ONE !! ONE UNTIL MOSTLIKELY ELEVEN!!!
PLEASE,...
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paulnikon:
Sandwich Artist. Impressive.
obijonk:
errr... im sorry you had to work a long long day hun, but isnt from 1 till 11:30 10.5 hours? meh. Jon x
Well hello
I just finished two 5-1am closes and i have tomorrow off and i am so incredibly happy!
Debbie is just a riot, i LOVE LOVE LOVE working with her. The crush no longer exists. only like a tiny lil smidgen. tiny, really. I'd just like to kiss her. on a dare. hahaha
georgia's my lady. I love her to bits i just WISH...
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I just finished two 5-1am closes
and i have tomorrow off and i am so incredibly happy!
Debbie is just a riot, i LOVE LOVE LOVE working with her. The crush no longer exists. only like a tiny lil smidgen. tiny, really. I'd just like to kiss her. on a dare. hahaha
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swen:
I knew you could work this out. But you were really quick about it. Very good. I'm proud of you.
swen
swen
tadzi:
im glad you worked that out.
ive seen enough broken hearts in the last week already
ive seen enough broken hearts in the last week already
So i've decided that i'm being stupid.
We're here for a good time-- not a long time and there's no point in being all depressed and sobbing all the time.
I've got to cheer up and stop assuming things and making things up.
Perhaps i have some sort of chemical imbalance? Personally, to me it seems as if i am manic depressive.. i've suspected this...
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We're here for a good time-- not a long time and there's no point in being all depressed and sobbing all the time.
I've got to cheer up and stop assuming things and making things up.
Perhaps i have some sort of chemical imbalance? Personally, to me it seems as if i am manic depressive.. i've suspected this...
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swen:
You're not stupid. How you feel has nothing to do with intelligence. But it's absolutely a good idea to try to cheer up. Try and keep that up.
I don't think you suffer from a bipolar mood disorder. You're just very sensitive and experience changes in mood more severe than others. That's quite different.
In other news: You're cute and adorable.
Take care,
swen
I don't think you suffer from a bipolar mood disorder. You're just very sensitive and experience changes in mood more severe than others. That's quite different.
In other news: You're cute and adorable.
Take care,
swen
fenris23:
You are right there is no point in being unhappy!
I feel like i've lost everyone..
I think i'm having some sort of anxiety attack.. I can't stop crying.. i'm so fucking depressed
I just want to be happy all the time like everyone else..
I dont want to grow apart.. i want her to love me like she used to..why do i always fuck things up?
one of these days i'm gonna fuck up...
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I think i'm having some sort of anxiety attack.. I can't stop crying.. i'm so fucking depressed
I just want to be happy all the time like everyone else..
I dont want to grow apart.. i want her to love me like she used to..why do i always fuck things up?
one of these days i'm gonna fuck up...
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violenttortoise:
Don't hate yourself... you have pretty hands.
fenris23:
Don't talk like this! If you don't brighten up soon I am going to start throwing parent-style cliches at you!
Until then *huuuuug*
Until then *huuuuug*
I'm really bad.
I'm so bad.
I dont know how this happened..
and why?
This is bad.
capital B.
capital A.
capital D.
ahh fack.
okay, i've been dating my girlfriend for a little over a year and 8 months. We're good.
But i have this coworker (previously mentioned in other journals) Debbie.. and.. i think she's SOOO COOOL. Like, have NEVER EVER laughed so...
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I'm so bad.
I dont know how this happened..
and why?
This is bad.
capital B.
capital A.
capital D.
ahh fack.
okay, i've been dating my girlfriend for a little over a year and 8 months. We're good.
But i have this coworker (previously mentioned in other journals) Debbie.. and.. i think she's SOOO COOOL. Like, have NEVER EVER laughed so...
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delilah_banks:
It's okay. Not BAD. BAD is not caring about anyone. Therefore, I'm BAD.
kayla_:
its not bad. it's ok.
you have a few choices.
tell ashley and debbie it was a mistake. never happen again. etc.
tell debbie it was a mistake and say nothing to ashley.
i don't know your relationship so i don't know which is better for you.
best of luck though sweetie.
you have a few choices.
tell ashley and debbie it was a mistake. never happen again. etc.
tell debbie it was a mistake and say nothing to ashley.
i don't know your relationship so i don't know which is better for you.
best of luck though sweetie.I went to PEI the other day it was suprisingly fun and refreshing. It felt good to finally have a little vacation-- cause thats' what i'm supposed to be doing during the summer months :\ I found this store, this amazing little store with skateboards and stickers and clothing (all i cared about was the clothing) and they had "FINE" clothing.. like "French Kitty" stuff!...
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it was suprisingly fun and refreshing. It felt good to finally have a little vacation-- cause thats' what i'm supposed to be doing during the summer months :\ I found this store, this amazing little store with skateboards and stickers and clothing (all i cared about was the clothing) and they had "FINE" clothing.. like "French Kitty" stuff!... Read More
delilah_banks:
Yay for new sparkly shirts. I just went on a major shopping spree and bought my bright pink Converse...ah...I'm in love. Shopping=me happy.
salalallaalalla i drank with debie and heather tonight..infact,.."M STILL SMASDHES! yayayayyyayi was suppose dto go to the bard byut they declined me cause i' only 18! yayaayya IIPS@! MY BAD!
i LOVE debbie and heater! i hopoe they liike me! her feriend with the 8s bangs wqs really cool! and the swiss cheese craxkers!! tyatyayayay YORW INSPECTING MY FONTS!hahaahaha
i hate my gd when i;'m...
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i LOVE debbie and heater! i hopoe they liike me! her feriend with the 8s bangs wqs really cool! and the swiss cheese craxkers!! tyatyayayay YORW INSPECTING MY FONTS!hahaahaha
i hate my gd when i;'m...
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toxickiss:
that was probably the drunkdedest entry I ever saw in my life! I love it! Glad to see you had fun.
*koz*
*koz*
toxickiss:
P.S. You are incredibly HOT! 
just figured Id let you know...heh heh.
just figured Id let you know...heh heh.