temptess

This obscenity follows me
wherever I go
and I believe that no one will know
my dirty little secrets
but they already know
and simply chatter quietly amongst
themselves
he told them what he had
no right to tell
and he apologized not for his own,
but someone else's words...
coming to me in the dark of night
to defame and defile
extracting goodness little by little
leading me to believe that all was well,
that's not enough
it's just too much
for me to take
my body shivered and quaked
belly moving like the tireless ocean
trying to fulfill his every need
while denying my own
unable to ask for what I want
because it would be asking
too much
I know that my reality far exceeds
his dreams and that all I will ever get
for my effort is a handful of
sodden panties and a headful of
tormenting thoughts
but I carry on nevertheless
knowing the knock will come
and wait, breath held.