telesis

I have this overwhelming urge to create a journal entry! However, my day was fairly ordinary and I don't think I have very much to comment on?

I need a shower and a good cleaning! There are parts on this body I actually take care of once and a while. I will try and come up with an interesting topic while I'm in there! I'll be back...

O.K. I'm back and I feel like shit! I just got off the phone. Fucking shit! I'm desperately trying to make a relationship work with someone I have a very long past with. This person will not keep me informed as to where she is going, I don't mean she won't tell me. It's more like "Oh, I guess it slipped my mind" I'm really sorry! Then she's off for the next two nights with her best friend. A friend that has betrayed me in the past, and I find it hard to let go! She has gained a new type of independence, a very selfish type of independence and I don't know if I can handle it? I am trying so hard to communicate. I don't know if this is working out or not? Fuck! I can't write anymore, I have to go and practice with my band now. I've just gotten off the phone with my buddy, he's like I have so many ideas right now and I want to finish this and that tonight! I want to accomplish this and I want to accomplish that! Blah-fucking-blah. I just want to go to bed! Whatever! I apologize for writing such a shitty post, I don't mean to bring people down. Tomorrow will be a better day, I know it!