It's interesting, I feel in a good mood, but am ridiculously annoyed. No secret why, so no reason to mention it. That sounds slightly logical, right? Anyway, I'm feeling good, overall.
Unless sickness gets in the way, there's a good chance I'll have a legit date next week. Beats this bastardized lazy shit. Nice girl, I guess. Truthfully, there's a part of me that feels like a hypocrite for being interested; my standards are being a little flexible on this one, but come on, it's not like they haven't been before. But hey, who knows, right? Optimism is a terminal disease.
Haven't decided if i will go out tonight. All depends, I think. Made an idiotic...very idiotic lapse in judgement the other day, and it might behoove me to go out to see just how for naught it was. Never can tell. Recriminations fester, and the past can never change, as it were. Man, sneaking in obscure shit, I'm in a mood. Anyway, I may head out to see if this old friend turns up. I sincerely doubt it. It's weird having maybe two old friends.
Have to arrange a redelivery of a package Monday. Or pick it up, whatever. Mailer's dead, gotta read the book. The other stuff should arrive soon, few more books, some DVDs, all that good stuff. Apparently they decided to ship them seperately to annoy me.
It doesn't feel like Thanksgiving time. At all.
Still not sure what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel comfortable, but not exactly rational. Plans keep falling apart, which sort of gets in the way of progress, as one might expect. Fuck. Ah well. If there comes a time i totally fall apart, I will try to make it as entertaining as possible.
Later.
Unless sickness gets in the way, there's a good chance I'll have a legit date next week. Beats this bastardized lazy shit. Nice girl, I guess. Truthfully, there's a part of me that feels like a hypocrite for being interested; my standards are being a little flexible on this one, but come on, it's not like they haven't been before. But hey, who knows, right? Optimism is a terminal disease.
Haven't decided if i will go out tonight. All depends, I think. Made an idiotic...very idiotic lapse in judgement the other day, and it might behoove me to go out to see just how for naught it was. Never can tell. Recriminations fester, and the past can never change, as it were. Man, sneaking in obscure shit, I'm in a mood. Anyway, I may head out to see if this old friend turns up. I sincerely doubt it. It's weird having maybe two old friends.
Have to arrange a redelivery of a package Monday. Or pick it up, whatever. Mailer's dead, gotta read the book. The other stuff should arrive soon, few more books, some DVDs, all that good stuff. Apparently they decided to ship them seperately to annoy me.
It doesn't feel like Thanksgiving time. At all.
Still not sure what the fuck is wrong with me. I feel comfortable, but not exactly rational. Plans keep falling apart, which sort of gets in the way of progress, as one might expect. Fuck. Ah well. If there comes a time i totally fall apart, I will try to make it as entertaining as possible.
Later.
lobster_mobster:
I won't let you disintegrate. I was utterly useless yesterday, except to make delicious beef stew. We ended up not recording, so we are shooting for this afternoon. I am nervous and doubting my talent. These guys are pro's, I'm small potatoes... 