tds

Man, people are a weird species. Why is it some try SO hard to get things from others, like approval or sympathy or even just any kind of recognition? The internet has only made this worse. Are some lives just that empty? Yikes. God knows i behave myself far better than i thought i could, by the way.

So, in keeping with things as they are, my CD player is practically dead. After trying again today, it just isn't going to make it. It made two moves --Lakeport to Ukiah, & Ukiah to Sac-- but it looks like the end. Which sucks, because those sixty-disc ones are amazing. It's now just a CD holder as i use the DVD player & the speakers, which sounds like shit but is better than nothing.

I've got nothing right now except a misguided "dream" & a growing contempt for humanity. That sounds terribly dramatic, but come on; I'd wager everyone out there hates at least a third of the people they meet in their lives, be it for legit reasons or petty crap. For every decent person i know, i know maybe eight wastes of sperm. That's a frightening thought, but at least in most cases i'm not alone in thinking that way.

Nigel the Grocery Guy is a creepy little man. Today we had a brief discussion on chimichangas (bet i spelled that wrong) & Greek philosophy. I forget how this came about, to be honest, but the notion of discussing such things with a 55 year old British man in short pants & ball cap at the door of my apartment makes me smile.

What means more, being happy or being practical? Been debating this.

The reason i think about stupid things lately is because it keeps me from thinking about serious things primarily of a depressing nature. April isn't my friend.

So, viz. HIV Negative girl. Still wants to get a drink sometime. Jesus. I'm about half sure she's an alcoholic, by the way. I have no desire to drink with a nutbar chick who I wouldn't have sex with, even if i was "more dominant." The real question is, though, how do i find some of these girls? And how is it i'm not having regular sex, because that would make me a much better person to be around.

I totally want to date a British girl. It'd be amazing.

Sleep would be awesome right now, but I really haven't the patience. Hence this poorly written, possibly heavily edited blog. But hey no one reads these anyway. I think this has to do with the fact i post at seemingly odd hours, so i get lost in the shuffle easily.

I need to make some phonecalls tomorrow, because i forgot today, because i was feeling actually sorta sick. And yeah, these calls should have theorhetically been made days ago, but eh, I got time. Because procrastination is a virtue.

And I'm done.