tds

So yeah, the show Friday was bad. Real bad. Listened to it halfway through, & have decided i might be better off doing an extra one next week or something. At the risk of embarrassment & self incrimination, i won't get too into the show, but...yeah, it was bad. There's nothing good ever going to come out of me in a miserable mood with a live mic. Ever. But it feels so much easier.

So has like everyone dropped off the face of the earth? At least anyone around Sac? I need to see people i enjoy, because otherwise i'll just freak out on fake couples at school. Yeah, that was another enjoyable part of Friday. I think my inner monologue is broken.

And i've been reading. A lot. That was the order of the weekend when it all comes to it. I think what i've been needing is some reason to feel at least slightly creative, & if i don't it couldn't hurt. I need to read more, it feels like its been far too long. And i think i might finally be able to write something of substance for the first time in life.

I feel crazy isolated lately, an odd, odd feeling. I have been thinking a lot, though, & i assume it's a little clearly. Plans are forming, things falling into place. I'll know more next month, i think. The goal continues to be to get out of here, & into the grid. By then, there's a good chance i'll have at least half of the driving shit out of the way, depending on who i can get ahold of in the next few weeks. Things are happening.

Let's kill this thing.