This December seems to be a collectively negative time. Maybe negative is too strong a word; it's been emotional. Everyone i know seems to have something going on that is testing the fiber of their being, & i just kinda feel a little helpless, i guess. I'm one of those people who always does what i can to help those i care about, but fuck, sometimes you just can't. And i fucking HATE that, because it makes me question my abilities as a friend, something i have enough trouble with anyway. I've got friends on here & off who are going through times i can't comprehend, but fuck if i know what to do or say about it. For those wondering, that's why i haven't left much in the way of comments. I just never know what to say or do that can help make things go slightly better. Maybe because there isn't much anyone can say or do. I honestly am not quite sure what i'm trying to say, so i think i should shut up. Just because i have no idea what to say or how to say it doesn't mean i don't care. And fuck the Christmas gods for making December such a difficult time for everyone i like.
In more self centered news, finals are done, class is over. Radio i know i passed, Film Genre i'm confident i passed but not in a flying colors sort of way. Actually this hinges on me doing a paper i somehow conned an extention on, so yeah, i figure i'm either getting an A with the paper or a C without it. I'm not particular. I think i killed the final; most of the questions were related to "Pulp Fiction" & "Blazing Saddles", both of which i've seen quite a few times. So i'll see how it goes. Regardless, this has been an interesting semester. Spring involves Theatre, Radio, & Film again. One is there to meet women, the other is my current major, & the other is because i need to have a Film History class with a teacher who isn't a complete prick.
Man, this time a year ago i never thought i'd be in Sac. I figured maybe Santa Rosa, or just stay mired in Ukiah. My biggest fear was being left behind when all my friends were off doing whatever it is they're doing. Still seems a little weird that i'm here, & that things have worked out so differently than i had thought they would. I mean, hell, i moved out here for primarily the fact that it was a major city with more of a chance to do anything interesting, & secondarily for a chick. The latter didn't work, to the shock of no one, but still, long story short, here i am, in the City of...Mentos. For as mediocre a year as 2006 has been, that's pretty cool.
I hate being confused. I have no idea what i want, or how to get it, & that sucks. Maybe the shit i want isn't real. Or maybe it is, just too far away. Love is bullshit, i'm poor for all intents & purposes, & while upward mobility is out of the question at the moment, i can move side to side like no one's fucking business.
My new ringtone (the phone WORKS now. Fuck Verizon anyway for making it a chore) is currently "Baba O'Riley," which wasn't my first choice, but the selection was limited & i like the song. $2.99 is pretty steep for a ringtone. I also got "Never Be Rude to an Arab" which is the BEST THING EVER. I'm debating getting more, but tha's the kind of shit that adds up.
Think i'll end this now. Hope everyone is doing well enough.
In more self centered news, finals are done, class is over. Radio i know i passed, Film Genre i'm confident i passed but not in a flying colors sort of way. Actually this hinges on me doing a paper i somehow conned an extention on, so yeah, i figure i'm either getting an A with the paper or a C without it. I'm not particular. I think i killed the final; most of the questions were related to "Pulp Fiction" & "Blazing Saddles", both of which i've seen quite a few times. So i'll see how it goes. Regardless, this has been an interesting semester. Spring involves Theatre, Radio, & Film again. One is there to meet women, the other is my current major, & the other is because i need to have a Film History class with a teacher who isn't a complete prick.
Man, this time a year ago i never thought i'd be in Sac. I figured maybe Santa Rosa, or just stay mired in Ukiah. My biggest fear was being left behind when all my friends were off doing whatever it is they're doing. Still seems a little weird that i'm here, & that things have worked out so differently than i had thought they would. I mean, hell, i moved out here for primarily the fact that it was a major city with more of a chance to do anything interesting, & secondarily for a chick. The latter didn't work, to the shock of no one, but still, long story short, here i am, in the City of...Mentos. For as mediocre a year as 2006 has been, that's pretty cool.
I hate being confused. I have no idea what i want, or how to get it, & that sucks. Maybe the shit i want isn't real. Or maybe it is, just too far away. Love is bullshit, i'm poor for all intents & purposes, & while upward mobility is out of the question at the moment, i can move side to side like no one's fucking business.
My new ringtone (the phone WORKS now. Fuck Verizon anyway for making it a chore) is currently "Baba O'Riley," which wasn't my first choice, but the selection was limited & i like the song. $2.99 is pretty steep for a ringtone. I also got "Never Be Rude to an Arab" which is the BEST THING EVER. I'm debating getting more, but tha's the kind of shit that adds up.
Think i'll end this now. Hope everyone is doing well enough.
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